happy halloween...

till later!

this is halloween...

is it a halloween movie or a christmas movie? i think it's more of a halloween movie. either way, i really want to watch it right now. i remember feeling this way last year too. luckily, chris had the dvd. too bad he doesn't live next door anymore.



not getting dressed up this year since i'm not doing anything but i'm going to wear my nightmare before christmas shirt tomorrow to work.

till later.

it's late and past my time, it leaves you blinded...

things on my mind:

first runner runner now national product. while watching the island: rw/rr (i don't know why i keep watching it, thank goodness it's over) i hear a familiar tune. i quickly look up and see, on the little black bar on the bottom of the screen, now playing - artist: national product/ song: sean song. sweet. i did a painting inspired by those lyrics. i wonder how one goes about having their music played on a show.

um, oh i now have a framed twilight poster hanging in my room. dork, i know. i got the poster a couple of days ago from walmart. and today i got a frame for it. it wasn't going to be framed but there was a sale on poster sized frames. the frame is huge though. i didn't remember the poster size when i got it but it works since the background of both the frame picture and the poster is black. either way, all the frames where on price no matter the size so it's not like i over paid. at least now the little wall space in the corner of my room is no longer blank.

also, all the twilight tarilers on tv are making me - 1. really wanting the movie to come out now so i can watch and 2. tired of seeing it played over and over again, it's going to start bugging me. oh well.

i'm also quite addicted to stumbleupon.com. i just keep clicking and clicking. though i have found some really interesting sites.

and lastly, i am heavily debating on if i want to pre-order fall out boy's new cd folie a deux. i'm sad that it was pushed back but maybe the wait will make it better. it's just, i don't know if i want to spend so much money. no way am i getting trois, $130+ yeah right, but i'm leaning towards deux rather than un...but i don't know yet. deux is still a lot of money but i really like the poster and the shirts are wearable. maybe i'll wait too long and all the pre-orders will be gone.

speaking of pete. isn't his baby due soon? she hasn't given birth yet, right? i keep think about how pete will totally flip out with happiness if baby wentzlee (thanks guy ripley for that one) is born on halloween, pete's favorite holiday.

ok enough, i should get some sleep.

till later.

i just can't take it anymore...

speed it up or slow it down. there are moments in life when you wish you could do one or the other.
at this moment i wish i had a fast forward button to press. i want to bypass all this. i'm trying so hard to not let it get to me. to make this place feel like home. but as the days pass and so do the months nothing seems to get better. it's only an endless routine of just trying to get by. i just wish i knew when this feeling was going to change. when do things finally start to click in place? how much longer do i have to wait? sure, some days are better than others but still most of the better days aren't really that great. i'm sure i'm making this sound way worst than it really is. i tend to do that.
maybe i expect too much too soon.

till later.

familiar landscapes
- new found glory

let's fall deeper into sleep
our dreams become fake reality
I wake, I hope
I'm on my way to a coast
where I know the roads like the back of my hand
familiar landscapes

and I know that this is new
like your first day of school
and you're feeling awkward
like you miss your home
and it leaves you with an empty feeling
I just can't take it anymore

what do you want from me?
what do you want from me?
what do you want from my life?
what do you want from me?
'cause my heart can't take it
my heart can't take this anymore

you feel deeply misplaced
your world has been built to crumble
you hope and pray everyday it works out
and it leaves me with this empty feeling
I just can't take it anymore

what do you want from me?
what do you want from me?
what do you want from my life?
what do you want from me?
'cause my heart can't take it
my heart can't take this anymore
anymore, my heart can't take this anymore, anymore

What better time than now to bandage your bleeding
I won't stop till I fix your misleading
your charm of course you use as a weapon
but my heart can't take it

what do you want from me?
what do you want from me?
what do you want from my life?
what do you want from me?
'cause my heart can't take it
my heart can't take this anymore

what do you want from me?
what do you want from me?
what do you want from my life?
what do you want from me?
what do you want from me?
'cause my heart can't take it
my heart can't take this anymore

let's fall deeper into sleep
and our dreams become fake reality
we hope and we pray, everyday
this works out
and it leaves me with this empty feeling
I just can't take this anymore

imagine all the people, living life in peace...

i was greeted with a long line of people holding signs on the side of the road on my final stretch home. what where these signs about...proposition 8, more importantly to vote yes. yes, to take away the right for same sex marriages in the state of california.
for me personally, i believe in the equal rights for everyone. seeing these people with their signs made me sad to think there are still many closed minded people in the world. what i also thought was really sad was that they had their children, not just teens but elementary age and younger, next to them holding these signs. in a way it's teaching their kid to discriminate against people who are different. omg, i remember living across the hall from someone who was so closed minded and not only that but his way of thinking was so messed up it was almost painful to talk to him about stuff. you could tell his way of thinking was what he grew up around. and i don't even want to think about how he will raise his future children.
anyway, if i remember correctly there was a time when women couldn't vote, but now not only did we almost have a woman president but our next v.p. could be a women. and of course, remember how black people were brought to america as slaves and then for generations they had to live in a world of racial segregation. but look how far we have come now with obama being the first african american presidential nominee for a major party. imagmine if these rights had been taken away. where would we all be right now?
i don't know. it just seems like a huge step backwards. i don't mean to go off about this subject. i just feel like everyone should be able to love the person they love. and if they want to get married, who am i to stop them.
eveyone's has their own opinions. this is just mines.
anyway, i was just on circa survive's myspace and they had a blog on prop 8. it's crazy just reading some of the comments people have left. and then there's all the tv commericals about it. i guess we shall just wait to see the outcome.

oh, one thing that made me smile on the drive passed all the signs...a couple holding hands as they walked passed all the sign wavers. and yes, they were two men.

till later.

your hair, it's everywhere...

i went and got a haircut today! finally, my hair was in bad shape. my reason for waiting so long was twofold - 1. i'm trying to grow it out and 2. i didn't know where to go. well, the place that my boss goes to was having this event called a "cut-a-ton" where you give a donation that would go towards a breast cancer foundation. so not only was it for a great cause but they were only asking for a minimum of $10. the place is called the color lounge. i really liked the look of the place. very modern and clean. open spaces with lots of whites, blacks, and chrome. and they had those hanging hair dryers that when you pull them down they turn on. very cool. well, like i said i'm still trying to grow my hair out so i didn't want to cut too much. my stylist told me about this spray called CAT that's good if i wanted to grow my hair out. let's see if that works out. at one point she asked if i colored my own hair. i was ashamed to admit to it. but she said it was a really nice color and even asked what the name was. i couldn't remember it, though i knew it had an interesting name. of course, once i was out the door i totally remembered, disco inferno, how could i forget that. haha. anyway, i thought it turned out great especially for $10.

some crappy camera phone photos:

mirror + cell phone =

total myspace photo.

till later.

your move holy man, choose wisely...

is it a little wrong that everytime i go to church i think of dane cook's catholic jokes?
so funny.
so true.

old school dane.
i miss this.

till later.

"i like jasper 'cause he's a southern gentlemen..."

so i actually went to the listening party deal at hot topic for the twilight soundtrack. yeah, i don't even know why i went. i wasn't planning on getting the soundtrack. but i had nothing else to do today and since i got paid the other day, i thought why not. i didn't stay for very long. i was in old navy before hand and bought a bunch of shirts for $1.99. they'll be good for work. anyway, once 7 came around i went to hot topic. stood in line and pre-ordered the cd. i heard the first two songs while i was there, muse and paramore...i also got to hear a lot of interesting conversation amongst the crowd. the title of this entry is just one of many opinions i overheard. i pretty much left right after i pre-ordered. i was not going to hang around longer than i had to. it just felt way too crowded. i wish i could have stayed to listen rpattz's song or bella's lullaby. oh well.

speaking of twilight, i've been watching the ex list lately, which stars elizabeth reaser who plays esme in twilight. weird though that her character's name is bella as well. but the show's really cute. plus i like the fact that bella owns a flower shop in san diego. i wouldn't mind working there. i wonder how they'll keep the show going if it gets picked up again (i have a feeling not a lot of people watch it, especially since it on friday nights) since bella's suppose to get married within a year. it's an interesting concept though. they're going to have to go through a lot of male actors...which could be a good thing.

well, till later.

she believes in magic and rhymes...

i went to the post office this morning before work to drop off some mail. those self serivce machines are really convenient. though, i just hope i did everything right and they get where they need to go.

while at the post office i picked up a package for my mom from her niece who lives in japan. she sent over some stuff for my mom's birthday. everytime she sends us stuff everything is in japanese so sometimes we have no idea what is or how to use it. oh, but one of the things she sent was some boxes of curry. japanese curry! i just hope it taste like curry house curry. i miss that.

and thanks to elise's radio show i found a new "josephine" song.

Josephine is not your kind
She believes in magic and rhymes
You tried hard to make her fine
But she sleeps with acid

Do her parents know it's for real
When she asks them to be high
I don't know
But they sure will be aware of it

She smokes clouds every single night
Should be glad that she's alive
In her head she sees butterflies with pistols

Josephine is not your kind
She believes in ravers with dimes
You tried hard to see her eyes
But they're made for others

She runs to the club with some cash
And spends them all on pleasure
In her head there's some old drug
Taking care of her

Gets the very best of a man
And pays him with a laugh
Don't you see she's not a mystery
-mando diao



till later.

this is the remix...

i'm watching mtv's the island right now. i don't really like the show. all the dudes are such douches. but i'm watching it because they are going to play a part of runner runner's so obvious during the show.
well, right as i was about to leave my room i hear the intro. it's pretty cool hearing them on tv/mtv. apparently, they were played on the hills as well but i never seem to hear it. but what was really cool was that during the scene on the island they had the little black bar at the bottom stating the name of the band and song.
seriously, it's only going to get bigger for them. so proud.

anyway, they posted a little remix video of the big race from their so obvious music video. that was really a fun and long day. the video made me laugh almost as much as i did that day. the boys are looking pretty sweet in their short shorts.


till later.

stay classy, san diego...

today i had the day off.
my mom and i went to san diego.
it's been awhile since we've been there since we found that asian mart here.
but they still don't have everything so it was off to san diego.
the drive toward there is a nicer one than the drive to l.a.
or so i'm told.
either way is good with me as long as i get out.
at one point i mentioned how nice the mountains looked to which my mom asked why i don't draw anymore.
no time, or so i say.
when i'm in school i actually have to draw and come up with ideas.
i miss it.
so we made our stop to seafood city and filled up the cart.
then we stopped at this one filipino restaurant. so good.
it got super busy since it was near lunch.
interesting to see all different types of people eating there.
then it was a stop to a random mall.
i can't remember the name off hand.
it was the first one on the list on my gps.
it was nice.
got some clothes.

i really like the general area of san diego.
i need to start researching what else is there besides seafood city, haha.
who knows, i might end up moving there.
i pretty much have it set in my mind that temecula is only a temporary stop for me.
at least that's what i hope.
i really don't like this area...at all.
nothing to do...or at least nothing i really want to do.
i'm trying to make the best of what i can but i've been here for a few months now and i'm still not feeling it.
i don't know how long this will last but i know it's not going to be forever.
who knows, maybe in a year i'll feel differently.

only time will tell.

till later.

live long and prosper...

thank goodness sylar did not die.
after hearing spoilers that a villain (that's popluar with fans) was going to die and not come back, of course my first thought was bye bye sylar.
adam was my second pick though.
i'm glad i was wrong about sylar.
he's really the only reason i still watch the show, no lie.

i'm liking this new direction they are taking zach's character in.
i always knew sylar couldn't be all that bad.
i kept telling my friends this, haha.

zachary/sylar pic spam:

this photo was my wallpaper for some many months last year.

i'm liking sylar's wardrobe this season: wife-beaters and...

suits.

remember when sylar was on "maui."

yay! the dancing! the glasses!
love. love. love.

eyebrows!
i'm glad they grew back.
must get magazine.

nice, zach looking like another one of my favorite villains...

alex! a clockwork orange!
so glad linderman's back on heroes, everytime he's on screen i think of alex.

i guess i should stop with the picture spam-ing. i can get carried away sometime, haha. aw, zach's cute, true fact. gosh, i'm such a fangirl sometimes...dork =P

till later.

animal style please...

lately my enties have involved food and this one is no different.

i went to in-n-out burger today. since living here it has quickly become my go-to fast food restaurant. so good.

it was really packed today.

i usually get a #1 - a double-double, hand-cut fries, and a "half-n-half" (which is how i like to fill up my drink, half coke/half diet coke). today i tried it "animal style," which only adds to the yummy factor.

october 22 is going to be it's 60th anniversary. maybe i'll head back there that day.

till later.

all you need is love...

pinkberry goodness today, yay!

having the pinkberry located in the same area as a starbucks (but then again starbucks is everywhere) makes for a hard choice.

in the end i went with pinkberry since i figured i could go to starbucks anytime since there's one across the street from my house as well as one down the road from work...and one in the mall and one in barnes and noble and...the list goes on and on.

and bonus, thanks to the customer in front of me and her sudden change of flavor, i got a free up-grade.

this time i got an original with fruity pebbles and it was so yummy.

now imagine this covered in fruity pebbles =)

for some reason the weather has been staying rather warm lately. which is good since i can eat frozen yogurt while not freezing. but bad thing since it's too warm to wear hoodies. i guess that's global warming for you.

i ended up watch across the universe. i really enjoyed it, like i knew i would. i was just a little worried that since i had such high hopes for it i would end up only to be disappointed in the end. but i wasn't. the music of course was awesome and made me happy just to hear them. and of course the whole art thing always is a plus in my book. oh, and i get how there was some sad parts but not enough to cry three times. maybe he said he cried like three times. though to be honest i only teared up once...maybe twice at the end. who knows maybe one of the songs hold a deeper meaning for him or maybe he's just more sensative than me, haha.

then i ended up falling asleep way eariler than usual. i must have been really tired.

till later.

happy birthday mom...

today is my mom's birthday. after work, which was super busy today, i took my mom out to dinner. it's a good thing i got paid today. we went to pechanga resort and casino for dinner and ate at the buffet they have there. holy, was there a ton of food. i seriously stuffed myself way too much. but it was so good. after dinner i tried my luck at the slots. i did not win anything. too bad. the last slot machine i was playing, i didn't even know how to play but it was only 5 cents a spin, haha.

well, i'm so tired from work and all the food, so i guess this is it.

till later.

look at all the lonely people...

i went to target today. but not to the one across the street from me but the one down the road of my working place. i didn't even work today yet, i drove down there. i kind of like that target better for some reason. it seems like they have more stuff. let's just say having two stores within close proximity is really nice.

well, i almost has an anxiety attack at the dollar area. they had a bunch of new hello kitty stuff, i was so excited. there was 4 new little tote bags, with a winter look. i had to seriously stop myself from getting all of them. i just got one, it's purple and she's holding hands with a snowman. i also ended up getting two fat hello kitty pens and some stickers. i don't know why i love her so much but everytime i see her on something i always want it. too bad she's on everything. it's a good thing i have some self-control and hardly any money otherwise this obsession could be a lot worst.

i also ended up buying the across the universe dvd because it was only $10. i have never seen it but when it first came out i wanted to watch it so badly so i though why not. i remember when it first came out and i was talking to jeff about. he's a huge beatles fan. he told me when he watched it he cried at least three times. never having seen the movie i didn't know how to react. i mean it's a little weird hearing a guy say he cried during a movie, three times no less. but then again i guess that could be sweet. plus, it's jeff and he's artsy like that, haha.

reminds me about the one time in high school when i was on a trip on oahu with the art club and we ended up watching i am sam. one of the upperclassmen, who was also a football player, said after the movie..."if you didn't cry during that movie, you're not human." i thought that was cute.

anyway, i'll probably try and watch the dvd sometime this weekend.

so, at work, since the owners aren't there, we've had the radio on and it's tuned to a station that plays classics, which means a bunch of beatles. just the other day they played eleanor rigby. in high school during my junior year my english teacher played us this song for an assignment. he was kind of hippyish like that, pretty cool. i ended up loving the song. hearing it on the radio recently reminded me how much i loved it. it's such a tragic song. i really hope i don't end up like eleanor rigby.

Ah, look at all the lonely people
Ah, look at all the lonely people

Eleanor rigby picks up the rice in the church where a wedding has been
Lives in a dream
Waits at the window, wearing the face that she keeps in a jar by the door
Who is it for?

All the lonely people
Where do they all come from?
All the lonely people
Where do they all belong?

Father mckenzie writing the words of a sermon that no one will hear
No one comes near.
Look at him working. darning his socks in the night when there's nobody there
What does he care?

All the lonely people
Where do they all come from?
All the lonely people
Where do they all belong?

Eleanor rigby died in the church and was buried along with her name
Nobody came
Father mckenzie wiping the dirt from his hands as he walks from the grave
No one was saved

All the lonely people
Where do they all come from?
All the lonely people
Where do they all belong?

till later.

funerals, $20 tips, and future boyfriends...

sometimes i feel so intrusive when i'm helping a customer with an order. first off, you usually ask what occasion is the order for. then when filling out their order there's a section that ask for the card message and i have to type that out. i don't know, it's really weird when they're standing in front of you relaying their personal message. you have the standard "happy birtday/anniversary," "get well," and "congrats" messages. i've seen/hear some really sweet and cute ones. it's usually the "i'm sorry..." or "sympathy" messages that make me feel really intrusive.

today, i had some customers come in to order funeral flowers. that's not too unusual since funeral orders is a big part of the flower industry and i have taken a few orders in the past. however, the girl that came in was pretty young, around my age, and the flowers were for her boyfriend. i just try to be sensitive and friendly, wanting to make everything as easy as possible. it's a hard thing to go through. we ended up getting more orders for that same service throughout the day. he must have been really loved. everytime i do a funeral order i always remember the flowers at my dad's funeral. i remember how beautiful they were and was surprise to see so many from people.

anyway, i spent most of my time processing flowers. towards the end of the day this guy, fairly young and kind of cute, walks in and i go to help him since the other lady i work with was busy with another customer. he ends up placing an order for a $100 arrangement as well as buying another $45 arrangement. the $100 one was to bring to one of his client's party, which of course made me wonder what he does for a living being able to drop $100 on flowers. the second arrangement was for his mom, how cute it that. anyway, i gave him his total and he ask if he can leave a tip. he ends up leaving a $20 tip. getting tipped for pretty much doing nothing, that's pretty cool. my first ever tip. this guy is now my favorite customer...did i meantion the fact he had tattooed sleeves and i've always been a sucker for guys with tattoos, especially sleeves...though that's gotten me in some trouble in the past.

so after working at a flower shop, i now fear for my future boyfriend because now not only does he have to live up to mr. edward cullen's perfection which includes singing me to sleep, he also has to be artistic, funny, sweet...(the list goes on and on) and having tattooed sleeves is a plus..but now he also needs to buy me flowers every now and then. it's no wonder i'm alone, i'm way too picky, haha. and there's no guy in the world that fits my idea of perfection. really though, i just want a boy who's not a douchebag and will treat me well...though ngl, having him buy me flowers sometimes would be nice too.

till later.

wear the funky, funky eyepatch...

i don't know how or why it happened but with maybe 2-3 hours left at work and while cleaning out the cooler, all of the sudden my right contact lens rips. i remember this happening to me once before during a class and not finding the torn piece until the next day. kind of freaks me out when i think about it. luckily, i was able to find and remove the ripped lens. too bad i wear colored lenses. for the rest of the time i had one green eye and one brown eye. it's a good thing i was stuck cleaning out the cooler instead of facing customers. i kept thinking about how funny it would be to get an eyepatch to wear on the way home since being slightly blinded in one eye reminded me when bret in an episode of flight of the conchords wears an eyepatch and his depth perception is off and misses the chair. guess, that's what you think about when you ended up watching flight of the conchords the night before. anyway, let's just say the drive home on the highway was an interesting one.

till later.

sometimes i think you hear what you wanna hear...

the cable went out. and so i missed my shows. now i have to find someplace online to watch heroes, one tree hill, and gossip girl.

and i guess since the phone and internet is all connected with the cable company that was out as well.

i ended up watching my flight of the conchords season one dvd. i've forgotten how funny the show is. everytime i see a sign holder here, i always think of the episode where bret quits the band and become a full-time sign holder and is all serious about it. i also love that episode since it includes one of my all time favorite lines:

bret: "oh my god. she's so hot. she's so flippin' hot. she's like a curry. i want to tell her how hot she is, but she'll think i'm being sexist. she's so hot she's making me sexist. bitch."

and i totally forgot how awesome this song is:


really though, this post would include the whole season if i kept posting my favorite parts. i just can't pick. it's like asking if i like bret or jemaine more. i mean brets cute and wears awesome sweaters (i want one for winter time) but jemaine is so awkwardly awesome. i don't know but i think demetri (martin) might come up ahead sinces he did play the keytar in his episode and i'm a sucker for the keytar. gosh, i feel like mel, but in a less creepy stalker way...hopefully.

till later.

so obvious...

so the runner runner boys finally posted their music video for so obvious. i thinks it's pretty awesome. but then again i might be a little bias. really though, they did this video all on their own and that's a hard task. am i right?

boy, was that a fun day. i guess it's pretty cool that i can say i was in a music video. especially, for a band i truely love both for their music and as people. it's just funny to see me creeping in the background, along with the JO-R mobile. i don't what it is but james's scenario with the wii is probably my favorite...and the race scene of course.

well, my cousin and her husband from maui stopped by late or maybe early since it was past midnight yesterday. they went to watch a chargers game and then they are off to vegas. it was nice to see them again and spend a little time with them. when i was little, her house was like my second home. they gave us a picture of their family which included her three kids, her sister's family, and my aunty. crazy to see how grown up her kids are now, her oldest is 13. and her sister is only a year older than me, yet she's already married, two years this month, and has two kids. i miss them all very much. hopefully, i see them all again.

and yes, i wore my over it hoodie today as well as got a strawberry and cream at starbucks.

till later.

when did california get this cold...

great not only am i pretty sure i'm hooked on pinkberry but my starbucks addition might be kicking back in again. though the reason for my past addition to that place had little to do with the drinks served there. anyway, today i was a little early for work so i decided to stop by the starbucks down the road of my working place. it was really cold this morning so i was going to get a chi tea but as i was waiting for my turn i saw it..."strawberry and cream." it is so good, it taste like the strawberry milkshake oreos, and we all know how much i love those. funny with the weather getting colder and colder, i'm craving frozen yogurt and blended drinks.
go figure.

but the cold weather is perfect for hoodies. and today this one arrived in the mail:i remember really wanting it when it first came out and almost buying it but i was too poor. but now it's on sale for $20. a hoodie for only $20 is too good to pass up. plus it's printed on american apparel and i love their hoodies but they're always so expenive. and of course lastly, it's over it! i love them of course...and miss them. well, this couldn't come at a better time. i'm sure i'll be wearing this often for the next few months.

till later.

how to make a boutonniere...

today was pretty busy. i spent most of the day making boutonnieres for the homecoming orders. the homecoming dance is tomorrow, don't ask me what high school it is because i have no idea. all i know is that i had a lot of boutonnieres to make. but being at work today was pretty fun. my boss is gone this week and so it was only susan (one of the designers) and laura (she came back to help out) there so it was pretty lax.

anyway, i myself have always been a visual person so i drew out the steps needed to make a boutonniere. it's pretty easy. not too many steps to remember. i haven't drawn anything in a really long time. it felt good. i should really do it more often.

till later.

sorry ice cream...

i went to pinkberry today. i had heard about it before online and when i found out they had one where i lived i went to check it out. and now i think i may be hooked on it. so good. i told the girl there that it was my first time so she let me sample the flavors. they have 3 - original, green tea, and coffee and you can pick the toppings. i tried original and green tea, i don't like coffee so i didn't try that. i ended up getting green tea, no toppings. but i want to go back and try other stuff now.

when i think of frozen yogurt i think of fro-yo, where erin works at. i remember she told me once when 30 seconds to mars played on oahu, jared leto came to her working place but it was close. apparently he really likes frozen yogurt and asked someone where he could get some.

hmm, i think i'll try to go back again sometime this weekend. hooked i tell ya.

oh and the final twilight trailer is finally out. now the movie just needs to come out and all will be well.

is it sad that i wanted to buy the edward shirt at hot topic? oh rpattz. also i still want the neville shirt they sold. last time i check it was on sale, maybe they still have it.

till later.

left me roses by the stairs...

today was "market day," which is when my boss goes and buys flowers for the week. on "market day" i have to process all the flowers a.k.a. clean and re-cut them. today was the first time i had to do it without laura's (the girl i replaced) help. all went fairly well and even somewhat relaxing. i mostly stayed in the back area and sang national product songs in my head while working.

this is just one corner of the cooler. the cooler isn't super huge so it fills up pretty fast.

and this is some of the buckets of roses.

i'm off tomorrow, which is nice. this weekend should be fairly busy since it's one of the high school's homecoming. it's different how big a deal the homecoming dances are here. the students come in to buy corsages and boutonnieres. i never went to any of my high school homecoming dances. but than again, it was just a little school dance held in the gym, nothing fancy. the game was a much more bigger deal. and then there were the rallies. i remember being on the flip-flop team sophomore and senior year, in which we won both times. they didn't have it junior year but i'm sure we would have won that year too. haha, oh high school.

till later.

motivate me, i wanna get myself out of this bed...

i don't know what it is, maybe i'm missing my friends too much but is it weird when people on tv start to remind you of them?

ok, so maybe the first example is not hard to see. i just got done watching paris hilton's my new bff and i know she hates when people compare them but in truth, everytime i see paris i think of jamie. especially after jamie dressed up as er for that "pick your own theme" party like two years back. though since jamie hasn't been a blonde for quite some time now, i tend to forget the likeness. now with jamie in france, though not in paris, i can't help but be reminded of her whenever paris invades my tv screen.

oh yeah, i also can't help but love seeing benji on the show with her. i know, weird pairing and all but i guess it's just my high school-good charlotte-loving-fan girl-self coming out.

and i guess the second example might not be as obvious but i've been getting into greek for awhile now and just love max. i don't know but this character totally reminds me of adam. i guess it's the way he acts...kind of socially awkward at times and super smart but also really sweet and genuine. i remember watching the show and thinking not only does max remind me of adam but he looks like kostos from sisterhood...which is because they're the same person, michael rady. haha. and another fun fact...the guy who plays leo in sisterhood 2 was also on greek and both kostos and leo were linked to lena in the movie. there i go getting sidetrack again. anyway, i really like the max character but i have a feeling he's not going to last long since casey and cappie are totally ending up together. then again cappie's awesome so i guess it'll all work out, hopefully.

oh man. i hate that fictional or "reality" tv characters are playing major roles in my life right now. that can't be healthy. but i have no friends here so sad to say but my friend right now is tv. ugh, i feel like such a loser.

till later.

the perks of being a wallflower...

is a wonderful book but that's beyond the point...the perks to working at a flower shop is getting free flowers. i was actually given the flowers on friday but forgot them in the cooler. i'm glad they are still holding up somewhat well.

gerbera daisies are so pretty.
they come in such fun and pretty colors.

so my main role at the flower shop is shop helper, normally helping out wherever is needed - cleaning, taking order, processing flowers...and as of late, i have learned how to make boutonnieres (high school homecoming) and wrapped bouquets (the bow's the hardest part).

heroes was on tonight. it was the first time since this season started that i was actually able to watch a full episode. usually i'm switching back and fort between heroes and one tree hill, which for some reason was not on tonight. yesterday, i even re-watched the first 3 heroes so far online in their entirety. but i'm glad i got to watch tonight's one in full. i mean come on...sylar a.k.a. gabriel. he's always been my favorite. sure he's "evil" but is it really his fault? haha. he was so sweet with his kid...i did shed a tear when he died. oh and the glasses! love.

love it!!!

it's weird, since i'm re-writing my back entries i feel like i'll be repeating myself at times. oh well. i really need to catch up on it.

till later.

lazy sunday...

gosh, i hate having the feeling like i wasted a day but i tend to do that often. it's like all i do is sit in my room doing nothing at all, while all the while the time quickly passes and i have nothing to show for the day. which of course leads me to stressing and worrying that i have no time to do anything. yet another bad habit that i let go on way too long, making it harder and harder to break.

but really what is there for me to do. i have no idea what i can do here. plus, who can i do stuff with? my mom? sure, like she'd do half the things i'd want to do.

i'm getting lonlier as the time passes. i thought by now i would have made a friend or two. my hopes were that after getting a job i'd meet some new people. but of course everyone at my job is well over the age of 40, maybe even 50 to be honest. and well the only one there that is close to my age is the girl i'm replacing so that really doesn't do me any good. it's weird, i have cousins here, one is even only a year younger than me but i don't even see them. the whole reason we moved to this part of california was because we have family here...and yet, they don't even really come around. i sort of knew that would happen. i was never really close to them and i always thought they were kind of different...whatever that may mean. but really, i thought if anything maybe they would be able to introduce me to people...though honestly, i never seen them with friends really, other than their other family.

so i guess the wait continues as i try to make the best with this situation.

till later.

dress warm, the summer's gone...

ok, so it's been awhile since i last posted something. but it's not because i have given up on my little goal...it's because i got sidetracked with the fact my computer's ac adapter broke...again. it's the second time i had to get a replacement. too bad they're so expensive. but i got one online for a pretty decent price and it arrived the other day. i think i'm going to save up for a new one.
i always feel like i miss out on so much when i'm away from the internet, haha. my connection to everything.

anyway, i've been trying to keep up with the whole blog-ing thing offline by doing little notes and stuff so i think i going to try to re-write some entries and backdate them. hopefully i can get this thing caught up in a few days or so.

anyway, after so many hotter than hot days, it's finally cooling off. funny, living in hawaii the temperature never really changed much when the seasons changed. but you can feel the change here. and weirdly enough, i think fall has always been one of my favorite seasons. i mean i love the feel of it. not too cold but not too hot. and the clothes - layers, leggings, boots. yeah, i usually wear that stuff anyways. at least now it makes sense to wear them.

till later.