Sunday, November 30, 2008
lazy sunday (again)...
tomorrow is december already.
it won't be long before christmas.
then the start of a new year.
today i woke up around 1:30pm.
it's nice getting to sleep in.
till later.
Saturday, November 29, 2008
what say we go and crash your car?



i saw it in someone's cart and even before i saw hello kitty on it, just by the colors alone i knew it was hello kitty related, haha. there's also a phone, it was so cute. but i went with this since i'd probably use it more. there was only two left so they went pretty quickly.
anyway, we did end up making it to san diego. i could even see the tire marks on the road where my tire blew out and had to drive over to the center divider.
till later.
Thursday, November 27, 2008
thanksgiving, turkey, and twilight...
for this thanksgiving my mom and i ended up ordering a thanksgiving meal from one of the local supermarkets. it was probably the first time we actually had the traditional thanksgiving food on thanksgivng like stuffing, cranberries, mashed potatoes, and even turkey. yeah, my mom has never made turkey on thanksgiving before because like i said, it's only two of us so there's really no need. if anything we only ate turkey on thanksgiving if we were spending it with other people.
anway, after lots of eating we went out to watch twilight again. yes, i made my mom watch it again. thankfully (haha) she didn't seem to mind. i guess since it was at night (and probably since it was one of the few places open that day) there were so many more people than the first time we watched it. it got pretty full. my mom even noted that most of the people there were female. though there were the handful of males there. but they were either fathers with their family or boyfriends who had been dragged along by their girlfriends.
when we first got there we were like half an hour early so we went to watched like 20mins of the new bond movie. i've never been into the bond movies before (though my mom's favorite bond is sean connery, the official original bond). with that being said and only watching like only 20mins of this movie let me just say, wow daniel craig was looking pretty good up there.
as time came closer, my mom and i made it into the right theater, which was right next to the restrooms so i got to stare at zack's spock poster again (he's such a dead-on spock, looks wise, so good). they play the same trailers as before so i got to watch the harry potter trailer again, still no neville though. and of course they showed that trailer for the scary movie, still a bad call since this time i was well aware of the children in the theater this time.
one thing i enjoy about watching movies in the theater is seeing how the audience reacts, it's the people watching lover in me. and it was especially interesting since it was the same movie with a new audience. three notable reactions this time that was different from last was: 1 - when edward first appeared and a guy (who was probably one of the dudes dragged to the movie) said pretty loudly, "i don't get why all the girls love him?" to which his girlfriend(?) quickly hushed him. jealous, maybe? haha. 2 - when edward's in bella's room and tells her he, "watches her sleep. it's..." to which same dude finishes the line, "creepy." and everyone starts laughing. though i didn't only because i said that exact same thing the first time i watched that scene...but i said it at a whispered tone. come up it's like a perfect set-up, i bet at least one person at every showing said/thinks that. and 3 - when kissing scene got a huge cheer from the audience this time around.
i have to say, i enjoyed the movie the second time more since i sort of knew what to expect. and like everytime you rewatch a movie, you tend to notice something new that you never saw before. for me one of the things i noticed was how victoria was in the prom scene when bella and edward first enter the room. i'm sure she's not meant to be hidden since there is pretty much a focus shoot of her, though it is of only her back. but i guess i was just so into bella and edward at prom that i totally missed seeing her the first time around.
well, that's how i spent my thankgiving. and i must admit there is a lot to be thankful for even if i might not always think it.
tomorrow's black friday. i hope i don't have to get up too early.
till later.
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Monday, November 24, 2008
and i drink cups of tea...
i'm thinking of changing my drink of choice at starbucks back to chai tea...
or maybe once it finally comes out again, gingerbread lattes.
i actually got to watch a full episode of the big bang theory tonight.
i usually have to flip back and forth during gossip girl commercial breaks so i only watch bits of it.
but that show is so funny.
can't wait for thursday.
not because of thanksgiving but because it's the start of a long break i have off of work.
sweet.
till later.
Sunday, November 23, 2008
the right stuff..
i can't believe the new kids on the block performed.
awesome.
till later.
Saturday, November 22, 2008
and so the lion fell in love with the lamb...


till later.
Friday, November 21, 2008
and the superstars sucked into the supermassive...
i opted to sit out opening night for the sheer fact that i'm a little frighten of the crazed fanbase twilight tends to unleash at so-called events.
though, i'm going to try to see if i can see it sometime tomorrow.
so i guess tomorrow will be me gushing about the movie, hopefully.
my mom watched rpattz on ellen today.
she told me how he doesn't know how to drive in l.a.
i think she liked the fact that they have something in common, haha.
till later.
Thursday, November 20, 2008
take time to realize...

so this isn't a picture of mines...but it's pretty close. it's a funky sort of hat and that's probably why i like it so much.
and just because...
i watched this last night and the first thing i thought was aw, pretty...the song, the candles, and ryan's haircut, haha.
on runner runner's youtube page they recently put up a bunch of cover songs to listen to.
till later.
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
show me the meaning of being lonely...
two steps back.
it's always the same.
even in a new place.
after all these months, i'm still working it out.
does it really get easier?
the expetations too high?
it's all about instant gratification.
i want it all.
but never do the work.
i fear i'm getting too good at being alone.
but the loneliness will be unlivable.
--
till later.
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
this november swallows me whole...
i tend to forget what day it is...
or even how far into november we're in.
it won't be long until the year comes to an end.
crazy.
till later.
Monday, November 17, 2008
i don't want to be...


Sunday, November 16, 2008
i want it that way...
mark ronson was guest captain that show. but i loved when he was on last season:
he was totally adorable, though i guess, when isn't he.
skip to 3:30 to witness adorableness.
and on the backside, if you put the two pages together you get this:
well i guess it was a good thing i bought a huge frame for my other twilight poster. i just kind of made a little collage of the images. too bad the newspaper posters were double sided, since i couldn't show both sides. though i did make sure to use the image of james/cam. i kind of liked him on the o.c. though volchok was a douche...maybe that's way i liked him. hmm, jasper/jackson was also on the o.c. around that time too.
this is totally reminiscent of my bop/big bopper/b.b. days when i use to collect posters of j.t.t. and the backstreet boys. i'm hoping all my twilight stuff just stays in this one place and doesn't start scrawling all over my walls...though, there's really not much room left, sort of.
speaking of reminiscing, i just got done watching the last episode ever of trl. though i haven't watched that show regularly since carson hosted, it's still sad to see it go. i remember when it first started before the live was even part of the title, when it was just carson, alone in a room filled with tv monitors playing videos. i remember the days of boy bands, the pop princesses, and more. it was great that they not only got carson back for the finale but a bunch of the other djs and guest. i mean justin and jc/nsync (haha, the early nsync days), christina aguilera, travis barker (aw, the blink 182 days), kid rock, jonathan davis from korn (ah, the korn and limp bizkit days), beyonce, diddy, eminem, 5o cent, nelly, luda, snoop (yay, drop it like it's hot!), hilary duff (hmm, i wonder if she talked to joel). 10 years. crazy. it was like they included a timeline of my favorite bands that were part of the show. i mean first there was the backstreet boys (brian/b-rok!) for me. to be honest, they were always my favorite, sorry nsync. everytime i hear one of their songs i can't help but smile and sing a long word for word. though it's still a little weird without kevin. i can't believe they've been together for 15/16 years. wow, i'm old. i think the boy band days was like the golden days of trl. it was so good back then. after the boy bands came my undying love for good charlotte so yay for the maddens being there. and they even talked about all things rock. i use to love that show. i remember having to stay up late at night to watch it but it was so good. good times. good times. then of course most recently fall out boy, too bad pete wasn't there for the performance...though he's going to be a daddy soon so that should come first. it was cool to see sisky playing bass for them though, weird but cool. i thought it was funny when they were talking to pete on the phone and quddus asked how everything was and pete was going on about going to chinatown and getting a bootleg copy of twilight and watching it like 90 something times or something. and quddus was like, "um, actually how's your wife doing?" oh pete.
it was the end of an era for sure. at least there's f'n mtv now. maybe i'll make it out to one of their tapings now that trl is gone...or maybe not.
well, this is an epic post. i think i mentioned like everything i could in this post. yeah, not really but close.
till later.
Saturday, November 15, 2008
but recently the flames are getting out of control...
i remember the fires last year. though i wasn't in california at the time i remember carl writing about how he had to be evacuated. in the end though, he and his home made it out ok.



such a different scene from the last time i was there in aug:
my heart and prayers go out to everyone affected by the fires.
till later.
Friday, November 14, 2008
you go out on friday night, i'll stay in but that's all right...
i need sleep.
till later.
Thursday, November 13, 2008
sweet dreams are made of these, who am i to disagree...
speaking of movies, the first thing my mom asked me when i got home today was if twilight was out yet. ok, so she didn't know the name. she called it, "that movie that you really want to watch." however, she does know that the two main actors are robert and kristin...she's one a first name basis with them, haha. idk, she saw something about it on the news today.
anyway, i wonder if zefron will make another appereance. reminds me of the time i dreamt about justin timberlake three nights in a row. i still fully believe that he was stalking me in my dreams. those dreams really come out of nowhere since i don't think i was listen to his music or anything those nights.
i don't know, usually when i do remember my dream they tend to be really weird and random or totally believable.
well, sweet dreams.
till later.
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
i used to waste my time dreaming of being alive...

Tuesday, November 11, 2008
flowers are blowing in the wind...
cue crappy camera phone pictures:



till later.
Monday, November 10, 2008
find comfort in yourself...
anyway, the thing i like about driving to new places is just seeing what else is out there. the only downside is that since i'm driving i can't really take in the road side views.
since the hair straightening technique takes a few hours to do, i had some time to kill. so what to do? hit up the mall, i guess. i was able to find one, thanks to my little gps, i don't know what i would do without it. this one mall had a sanrio surprise store with one of those coin machines that sell the $1 hello kitty phone charms that i love so much. i ended up getting one. those things are addicting. everything i tell myself i should stop i keep wanting to get more. i'm pretty sure my charms outweigh my phone itself. it's a good thing there's not one over here or else i'd have 100s of them. i also ended up buying some tights and two knit beret/beanies, cream and royal blue, from forever 21 (which we do not have in my town).
there was still more time to kill so i went to another shopping center. this one had a big borders (my town only has a borders express but there is a big barnes and noble). and in there i found something i've been wanting to get for some time now...a mini christmas tree!

when i finally got home i had a postcard waiting for me. it was from france, from jamie. i wish i could go there. one day, maybe.
till later.
Sunday, November 9, 2008
i cut like a knife and i dance just like a dream...
funny everytime i think of riverside i think of hellogoodbye...and their jesse buy nothing music video becuase of forrest and his "riverside ab tattoo"...and all the guys acting like "bros." i also think about j and how we use to joke around about me moving near there and being surrounded by "bros" from the 909 (though, they recently had to change the area code for some reason). let me just mention how he was very bummed when my new number did not start with 909. too be fair though, j only dislike 909-er because he comes from the o.c., huntington beach to be exact. which is also where hellogoodbye originate from, which might explain their dig on riverside "bros" as well. idk, some kind of territory rivalry or something, haha.
i have always thought it was cute that jesse wrote this song as an actual way to ask some girl to prom. too bad hellogoodbye will no longer be preforming this being that jesse is no longer in the band...along with chris and marcus. in fact, it's pretty much just forrest that's left. well, aaron, the original drummer is back. though isn't hellogoodbye really just forrest anyways...yeah, idk. i remember seeing them play in hawaii (twice) and it was so much fun. i wonder how different their shows will be now. i sure still just as fun though.
till later.
Saturday, November 8, 2008
sleeping to dream...
i don't know if it's my body still trying to adjust to the hour time change or the fact it's getting darker sooner or something totally different but i'm been so tired.
in closing...
sleep = good,
sleeping in = MEGA good.
till later.
Friday, November 7, 2008
do the hellen keller and talk with your hips...
well, their latest video for don't trust me is pretty funny, just like their other videos...
in fact...
here's holler till you pass out -
so funny.
and...
here's electroshock! -
dance party, here i come.
oh and in the newest issuse of ap there's an article on sean and nat...3oh!3.
you know you're listening to a band way too much when they start to make their way into your dreams.
till later.
Thursday, November 6, 2008
which came first the music or the misery...
more often than not, cruches always seem to leave one crush'd. tonight's episode paralleled, mostly betty's storyline of course, things i've gone through. from the very start of the show, when betty plans the accidental bump-in...yeah, i've done that. it started off cute and sweet, like most crushes do, making me want to have a crush. and he even sang to her. then of course comes the ups and downs. "does he like me?" at one point betty mentions sounding stupid when she's around him...that's totally me. words tend to fall out of my mouth faster than normal and i end up doing things which i later cannot even start to explain (she threw him a party!).
so here's the thing. something i've been thinking about for awhile now...i think i tend to mistake friendliness for something more. i read into things too much and a simple friendly gesture will turn into me attaching myself to someone who isn't even interested. so, sure when betty catches her crush jesse kissing amanda it was painful (hate to say it but i've been there too). but what really got to me was aterwards when betty was telling daniel how jesse called her beautiful and how she should have know he ment on the inside. at that moment i knew exactly what she felt. for months i've been questioning on how i'm not good enough and why didn't he like me.
yeah, this episode really reminded me of how bad a crush can get and why it's a good thing i don't have one at the moment. remember, the last boy i had a crush on was douchebag ****. it's those arty boys you have to watch out for, i tell ya...too bad their the ones i tend to fall for.
all the while i couldn't help but think how all this reminds me of kate nash's song we get on. i worte an entry (my last one) on my old blog about how this song was perfect for my situation. and it's totally perfect for betty's one too...like for real. crazy, how songs can perfectly capture moments in everyone's life. sad though, since a lot of kate's song remind me of douchebag, so i hardly listen to them and more...though they are so good.
We Get On
Simply knowing you exist
Ain't good enough for me
But asking for your telephone number
Seems highly inappropriate
Seeing as I can't
Even say hi
When you walk by
And that time you shook my hand
It felt so niceI swear I never feel
This way about any other guy
And I never usually notice people's eyes but
I conducted a plan
To bump into you most accidentally
But I was walking along
And I bumped into you much more heavily
Than I'd originally planned
It was well embarrassing and
I think you thought that I was a bit of a twat
I just think that we'd get on
I wish I could tell you face to face
Instead of singing this stupid song
But yeah I just think that we might get on
So I went to that party and everyone
They were kind of arty
And I was wearing this dress
Because I wanted to impress
But I wasn't sure if I looked my best
'Cause I was so nervous
But I carried on regardless
Strutting through each room
Trying to find you
And when I saw you
Kissing that girl
My heart it shattered
And my eyes, they watered
And when I tried to speak I stuttered
And my friends were like whatever
You'll find someone better
His eyes were way too close together
And we never even liked him from the start
And now he's with that tart
And I heard she done some really nasty stuff
Down in the park with Michael
He said she's easy
And if your guy's with someone that's sleazy
Then he ain't worth your time
'Cause you deserve a real nice guy
So I proceeded to get drunk and cry
And lock myself in the toilets
For the entire night
Saturday night
I watched channel five
I particularly liked CSI
I don't ever dream
About you and me
I don't ever make up stuff about us
That would be considered insanity
I don't ever drive by your house to see if you're in
I don't even have an opinion
On that tramp that you're still seeing
I don't know your timetable
I don't know your face off by heart
But I must admit
That there is still a part of me
That thinks we might get on
That we could get on
That we should get on
-kate nash
i'm lying...i wish i had a crush right now, haha.
till later.
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
hello, hello kitty. hello dear friend...
of course this is a play on lichtenstein's artwork which makes it even more awesome.
then i saw this shirt. i had to get it just for the fact that dear daniel is on it. i love him. i wish he was on more stuff. the front says "he love me" and the back says "he love me not."
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
yes we can!!!
history has been made.
change is happening.
and because i love this video:
till later.
Monday, November 3, 2008
take on me...
while lurking about, i happened upon this amazing video:
the original version is one of my favorite 80's music video.
i found this too funny.
and since i didn't really do anything post worthy today, why not share this awesomeness.
till later.
Sunday, November 2, 2008
remembering sunday...
anyway, i ended up driving up to lakewood which is like an hour or so away to all time low's instore acoutic preformance/signing at the best buy over there at noon. since every concert is always at night and like an hour away i figure this might be the only time i could see them. i'm not really down with driving for an hour so late at night alone. so until i find someone to go with or i move somewhere closer this will have to do.
like always i got off to a late start but got there before they started. i don't know why i continue to put myself in these uncomfortable sistuations. so many youngin's and ugh, the scene kids. i think i'm getting too old for this stuff. i guess it's lucky that i look younger than i am (i've been told that a lot) otherwise i'd totally look at of place. the staff made us sit on the ground while we waited for them to start. i overheard one work saying how there was so many more people than when gym class heroes were there. she also said how she had no idea who the band was only that they have pictures in their underware. i ended up chatting a little with a girl next to me before it started. she liked my pants.
zach and alex take the "stage."
alex: "i will not take off my shirt. this is a family store."
zack: "i'm not taking off my shirt either. sorry."
alex: "don't do it. don't do it."
to which the guy in front of me loudly disapproved. no lie.jack creeping in the background on zack's right.
alex: "i'm clumsy...like fergie."
- there's rian creeping in the background now, watching alex. alex's new hair. shorter and darker.
he played the last song, remembering sunday, solo.
dear maria, count me in
six feet under the stars
jasey rae
remembering sunday

zack was last. i asked him if nick was still there. he said he had to leave to get ready for the show (i really wish i could have gone). i asked him if he could tell nick i said hi. he said of course and then said "in fact, i'm going to text him right now." he already had his phone out. he has a white blackberry cruve. so i told him to tell nick "josie from hawaii said hi." to which jack perked up and said, "you're from hawaii?!" i told him how i saw them when they played there and jack said, "pipeline, right?" then zack was telling me how he was going to move out to california soon and he's hoping to do surf trips to hawaii and maybe we'll see each other there, though i think he'll probably make more trip out there than i will. zack asked if i was from oahu and i said i went to school there but i'm from maui. then we were talking about nick again and he told me how they're pretty much sharing a room right now, cute. i told him i had seen nick there earlier and was bummed i couldn't say hi. then this girl, who thought she was so cool, interupted and was all like "who?" so i said nick from runner runner and she said, "oh, i don't know who that is." um, i wasn't talking to her but whatever. i just told her he's zack's brother. to which zack smiled and said yeah. i did tell zack how i know the story behind that though. so, now i'm spreading that rumor around too, haha. i don't know why some people think zack's a douche, he's always been really nice to me the both times i've met him. he's just sort of shy and doesn't talk much to people. i just have an "in" because of nick, haha.
i guess it was good thing i was one of the last few since i got to talk to them for awhile. i didn't want to stay too long since they needed to go and had a couple more people to meet so i got a hug and left.
they did a song of their ep and played jasey rae. yay, i love that song.
here's alex playing remembering sunday.
zack and my over it shirt, haha.
till later.
Saturday, November 1, 2008
maybe i should hate you for this, never really did ever quite get that far...
saturday, november 03, 2007
and i found this boy...
yesterday was a rollercoster of emotions...and the ride continues on. i'm a girl, i tend to over think things. isn't it just my luck that when things might actually start to look up, it turns out it's just not that easy. my heart is beating out of my chest, my head is spinning out of control, my stomach is fluttering away, and my feet won't touch the ground. i replay every moment of the night...the amazing parts and the heartbreaking ones as well. i freaked out...but i stayed, twice. i wanted to stay in the moment as long as i could.
he's just too...too cute, too sweet, too cool, too awesome, too talented...and because of that, someone else wants him too.
but maybe, just maybe he might like me...
the things he does, the things he said, the glances across the room, his touch.
i liked having the feeling that it was just us, i liked that i had to tippy toe to reach him, i like that we could just look into each other's eyes and just know, i liked that he pulled me in, i liked thinking about it...
i disliked the mix signals, i disliked the games, i disliked that she was so nice and maybe we could have been friends, i disliked the awkwardness of the situation, i disliked thinking about it...
for the first time that i can ever remember, i put my heart on the line...and it's killing me.
i need to know.
i am such a teenage girl.
dammit, i like you.
it happened so long ago. yet, sometimes it feels like it was just yesterday. ugh. re-reading what i wrote is kind of sad. i can't believe i ever felt that way toward him and how much it hurt me. i should have known. i mean there was so many signs and so many times i almost left that night. "just stand next to the bouncer" will always be the best advice i should have followed but didn't.
how funny, he shall forever be remembered as "that douchebag ****" by my friends and me (and even some people that don't even know him). i remember when i first pointed him at to laura's sister and adam, they both said (at different times) that he even looked like a douchebag. so i guess the name really fits him in ways both inside and out.
i must admit though, that emotional rollercoaster did produce some creative outlets for me like the haiku on top (the last line came from a message i got from np danny about this), a painting i wish i kept, some yellow sweater songs (titles): don't be stupid - tell her you like her (MAN-UP!!!) and i hate you...let's hangout! and inspiration for one of my prints:
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