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    Sunday, November 30, 2008

    lazy sunday (again)...

    wow.

    tomorrow is december already.

    it won't be long before christmas.

    then the start of a new year.

    today i woke up around 1:30pm.

    it's nice getting to sleep in.

    till later.

    Saturday, November 29, 2008

    what say we go and crash your car?

    on the way to san diego today my front right tire exploded. luckily, 1. it was during the day, 2. i wasn't alone, my mom was with me, and 3. no one was hurt. it happened while i was on the 15 and maybe 25-30mins away from home. we got a hold of the police, who called a tow truck. after like 40/45+ mins, all was taken care of. i was pleasantly suprised to learn that i did have a spare tire...however, it was a tad flat. it did get us back to town though and to costco to change all four tires...better safe than sorry, right? oh, and it was only while waiting for the tow truck did my mom think it was best to tell me that this same tire had a flat before back on maui, which was "fixed" by being patched up. so maybe she could have told me that sooner, huh?
    a picture from the side of the road. the cars were going by pretty fast and kind of close.the tow truck came. yay!for real, the tire exploded.

    for obvious reasons that would be the downside of my day. the upside? i got this at costco:

    i saw it in someone's cart and even before i saw hello kitty on it, just by the colors alone i knew it was hello kitty related, haha. there's also a phone, it was so cute. but i went with this since i'd probably use it more. there was only two left so they went pretty quickly.

    anyway, we did end up making it to san diego. i could even see the tire marks on the road where my tire blew out and had to drive over to the center divider.

    till later.

    Thursday, November 27, 2008

    thanksgiving, turkey, and twilight...

    thanksgiving was never a really huge holiday for me. i guess it's because i don't have a big family to share it with since for the most part it's just my mom and me. though when i was younger i think we did have a lot more family get-togethers. then as i grew older, things changed and everyone had there own thing going on. but that's life.

    for this thanksgiving my mom and i ended up ordering a thanksgiving meal from one of the local supermarkets. it was probably the first time we actually had the traditional thanksgiving food on thanksgivng like stuffing, cranberries, mashed potatoes, and even turkey. yeah, my mom has never made turkey on thanksgiving before because like i said, it's only two of us so there's really no need. if anything we only ate turkey on thanksgiving if we were spending it with other people.

    anway, after lots of eating we went out to watch twilight again. yes, i made my mom watch it again. thankfully (haha) she didn't seem to mind. i guess since it was at night (and probably since it was one of the few places open that day) there were so many more people than the first time we watched it. it got pretty full. my mom even noted that most of the people there were female. though there were the handful of males there. but they were either fathers with their family or boyfriends who had been dragged along by their girlfriends.

    when we first got there we were like half an hour early so we went to watched like 20mins of the new bond movie. i've never been into the bond movies before (though my mom's favorite bond is sean connery, the official original bond). with that being said and only watching like only 20mins of this movie let me just say, wow daniel craig was looking pretty good up there.

    as time came closer, my mom and i made it into the right theater, which was right next to the restrooms so i got to stare at zack's spock poster again (he's such a dead-on spock, looks wise, so good). they play the same trailers as before so i got to watch the harry potter trailer again, still no neville though. and of course they showed that trailer for the scary movie, still a bad call since this time i was well aware of the children in the theater this time.

    one thing i enjoy about watching movies in the theater is seeing how the audience reacts, it's the people watching lover in me. and it was especially interesting since it was the same movie with a new audience. three notable reactions this time that was different from last was: 1 - when edward first appeared and a guy (who was probably one of the dudes dragged to the movie) said pretty loudly, "i don't get why all the girls love him?" to which his girlfriend(?) quickly hushed him. jealous, maybe? haha. 2 - when edward's in bella's room and tells her he, "watches her sleep. it's..." to which same dude finishes the line, "creepy." and everyone starts laughing. though i didn't only because i said that exact same thing the first time i watched that scene...but i said it at a whispered tone. come up it's like a perfect set-up, i bet at least one person at every showing said/thinks that. and 3 - when kissing scene got a huge cheer from the audience this time around.

    i have to say, i enjoyed the movie the second time more since i sort of knew what to expect. and like everytime you rewatch a movie, you tend to notice something new that you never saw before. for me one of the things i noticed was how victoria was in the prom scene when bella and edward first enter the room. i'm sure she's not meant to be hidden since there is pretty much a focus shoot of her, though it is of only her back. but i guess i was just so into bella and edward at prom that i totally missed seeing her the first time around.

    well, that's how i spent my thankgiving. and i must admit there is a lot to be thankful for even if i might not always think it.

    tomorrow's black friday. i hope i don't have to get up too early.

    till later.

    Wednesday, November 26, 2008

    little garden, how do I make your flowers grow...

    i took this home from work today:

    pretty.

    till later.

    Tuesday, November 25, 2008

    buy a bag of balloons with the money we've got...

    best part of my day.
    hands down.
    till later.

    Monday, November 24, 2008

    and i drink cups of tea...

    i think the cold weather is finally on it's way.
    i'm thinking of changing my drink of choice at starbucks back to chai tea...
    or maybe once it finally comes out again, gingerbread lattes.
    i actually got to watch a full episode of the big bang theory tonight.
    i usually have to flip back and forth during gossip girl commercial breaks so i only watch bits of it.
    but that show is so funny.
    can't wait for thursday.
    not because of thanksgiving but because it's the start of a long break i have off of work.
    sweet.

    till later.

    Sunday, November 23, 2008

    the right stuff..

    i watching the ama's right now.

    i can't believe the new kids on the block performed.

    awesome.

    till later.

    Saturday, November 22, 2008

    and so the lion fell in love with the lamb...

    i went to watch twilight today right after work. after all these months of waiting, i finally got to see it. my mom and i went to the mall to watch it (the movie place there is called edwards, haha), even though there is a movie theater right down the road from us (but that one is older and smaller). there was a small line to buy tickets but thankfully, the theater wasn't very packed. at first i was a little worried about the people we were sitting next to, they were a group of teenage girls...i was afraid that i was going to be irritated by them throughout the movie but luckily they weren't bad.
    anyway, i was very glad to see that they played the harry potter trailer. though i'm still bummed it was pushed way back to july. wasn't it suppose to come out today, right? i just wished they showed more neville, love him (though i don't think he was in the trailer at all). i can't wait till the last movie...to watch neville kick ass. oh, one of the other trailer was for this super scary looking movie, unborn or something. i don't think it should be played before twilight, i just think younger kids will go see the movie and be totally scared by the trailer...ok, maybe it's just me who just doesn't like scary movies. i think cam's in it, which could explain why they were showing it before twilight.
    finally the movie got underway. i enjoyed it. sure there were somethings i didn't like. but than again there were a lot that i did. it's always interesting when books get turned into movies. i tend to lend more for the book version than the movie but it's mainly because the books are always more detailed. plus, you get to play it out for yourself. there were many moments i found myself thinking, "hmm, that's not how i pictured it." but it worked out. i guess you just need to remember it's an adaptation of the book. what i did find pretty cool was how the soundtrack worked into the movie, like when they used rpattz's song in the port angeles scene, it really fit and made it even more sweet. oh and the iron and wine song playing in the prom scene. and the use of muse in the baseball scene. ok so the baseball scene in probably hands down my favorite. i just wished jasper and emmett were in it more...though i guess they aren't in the book that much. but i just love them. funny, i like jasper a lot in the book but in the movie i like emmett more. i think it's purely for the fact that i like kellan.
    well, i already have plans (with myself, haha) to go watch it again sometime next weekend. i think the last time i watched a movie in the theater more than once was either 8-mile or a walk to remember, which ever came out later. i think i might re-read the book before i go again, maybe. my mom liked it too. she had thought it was going to be scary because, well you know, it has vampires. she said it was good since she didn't feel sleepy during it. side-note: when i was looking up times for the movie, it listed twilight under horror (among other genres) and i thought that was pretty laughable.
    oh and two awesome things happened after the movie. one, i saw this poster near the ladies room:
    i want it (or him, which ever)
    and the second thing was that i learned that they have one of those $1 coin machines that have the hello kitty phone charms in them. of course i got one. this series is a beach theme one (like the one in riverside) and now i need to collect the entire series, haha.
    of course with a huge opeaning it comes to no surprise that new moon is now a go. although, new moon is probably my least favorite of the saga...mainly because edward is gone for like half the book, it's be interesting to watch with the whole werewolf thing play out. although, i started liking jacob in the last book when i saw him in the movie i couldn't help but dislike him again, oh well. i hope they'll be able to do the whole twilight saga...though i think they'll need to shoot it one after another, lord of the rings style, since the characters can't age.

    till later.

    Friday, November 21, 2008

    and the superstars sucked into the supermassive...

    we all know what came out today...
    i opted to sit out opening night for the sheer fact that i'm a little frighten of the crazed fanbase twilight tends to unleash at so-called events.
    though, i'm going to try to see if i can see it sometime tomorrow.

    so i guess tomorrow will be me gushing about the movie, hopefully.

    my mom watched rpattz on ellen today.
    she told me how he doesn't know how to drive in l.a.
    i think she liked the fact that they have something in common, haha.

    till later.

    Thursday, November 20, 2008

    take time to realize...

    i bought a trapper hat today. i've been wanting one every since i saw them sometime last year at banana republic. i would have gotten it then...however, it was $150. yeah, i don't know why i have been wanting one so badly. yesterday, this boy came in the store wearing one and i really wanted to asked him where he got it. and recently i some them again at target. and though they were only like $15 this time and really cute, i still couldn't bring myself to spend the $15 on it. but tonight i found one for $10. it's black and so soft and furry...faux fur of course. and though the weather has not been as cold as i wish, it will keep me warm when the time comes. either way, i've been hoping to add a trapper hat to my winter wear. as of late, i've been wearing my beret beanies whenever i'm not at work...if i knew it would be ok, i'd probably wear them to work too. right now i have 5 and find myself wanting to buy a new one everytime i see them. cold weather, i'm getting ready for you...so you better come soon. yeah, i get that i do live in california so it doesn't get that cold but still...it'll be colder than hawaii.

    so this isn't a picture of mines...but it's pretty close. it's a funky sort of hat and that's probably why i like it so much.

    and just because...

    i watched this last night and the first thing i thought was aw, pretty...the song, the candles, and ryan's haircut, haha.

    on runner runner's youtube page they recently put up a bunch of cover songs to listen to.

    till later.

    Wednesday, November 19, 2008

    show me the meaning of being lonely...

    one step forward.
    two steps back.

    it's always the same.
    even in a new place.

    after all these months, i'm still working it out.

    does it really get easier?

    the expetations too high?
    it's all about instant gratification.

    i want it all.
    but never do the work.

    i fear i'm getting too good at being alone.
    but the loneliness will be unlivable.

    --
    till later.

    Tuesday, November 18, 2008

    this november swallows me whole...

    the days all seem to just blend together.
    i tend to forget what day it is...
    or even how far into november we're in.

    it won't be long until the year comes to an end.

    crazy.

    till later.

    Monday, November 17, 2008

    i don't want to be...

    i bought this today at target: it was on sale for only $14.98. seasons 1 & 2 were also on sale but i already have them. i've been wanting to buy season 3 since even before it came out on dvd but the thought of spending $40+ on it has always stopped me...that's also the reason i still don't have seasons 4 & 5 right now...i'll just need to wait a couple more years i guess.
    anyway, the main reason i've been wanting season 3 is because it's the season that pete's on.
    haha, pancakes.
    till later!

    Sunday, November 16, 2008

    i want it that way...

    i slept in till almost 2pm today. that hasn't happened in a long time. i must have been super tired...i had a really crazy dream too, though no zefron. i guess that's what happens when i stay up till 3am watching episodes of never mind the buzzcocks on youtube. i've been trying to catch up on the lastest season. this show is so good, so funny. it's very british in it's humor...very dry and sarcastic. i remember the first time i saw this show, it was sometime in january, around 3am at ktuh and ross made me watch the episode with amy winehouse. anyway, i'm still trying to figure out if i'm liking simon's hair this season. either way he's still awesome. too bad the episode with russell brand was pulled because of his recent scandal. i hope it does air one day. i bet it was crazy funny.

    this was part of the first episode this season. so classic, so funny:

    mark ronson was guest captain that show. but i loved when he was on last season:

    he was totally adorable, though i guess, when isn't he.
    skip to 3:30 to witness adorableness.
    oh and in this episode the keytar made an appearance as well, which i also love.

    after i was up and ready to go, my mom and i went grocery shopping. at one point i was walking around with three bottles of green tea and a container hummus in search of my mom. i don't know how she does it but she tends to totally disappear at times.

    before we left i picked up a la times newspaper because i heard there was some twilight stuff in it. it had twilight posters in there:

    and on the backside, if you put the two pages together you get this:

    well i guess it was a good thing i bought a huge frame for my other twilight poster. i just kind of made a little collage of the images. too bad the newspaper posters were double sided, since i couldn't show both sides. though i did make sure to use the image of james/cam. i kind of liked him on the o.c. though volchok was a douche...maybe that's way i liked him. hmm, jasper/jackson was also on the o.c. around that time too.this is totally reminiscent of my bop/big bopper/b.b. days when i use to collect posters of j.t.t. and the backstreet boys. i'm hoping all my twilight stuff just stays in this one place and doesn't start scrawling all over my walls...though, there's really not much room left, sort of.

    speaking of reminiscing, i just got done watching the last episode ever of trl. though i haven't watched that show regularly since carson hosted, it's still sad to see it go. i remember when it first started before the live was even part of the title, when it was just carson, alone in a room filled with tv monitors playing videos. i remember the days of boy bands, the pop princesses, and more. it was great that they not only got carson back for the finale but a bunch of the other djs and guest. i mean justin and jc/nsync (haha, the early nsync days), christina aguilera, travis barker (aw, the blink 182 days), kid rock, jonathan davis from korn (ah, the korn and limp bizkit days), beyonce, diddy, eminem, 5o cent, nelly, luda, snoop (yay, drop it like it's hot!), hilary duff (hmm, i wonder if she talked to joel). 10 years. crazy. it was like they included a timeline of my favorite bands that were part of the show. i mean first there was the backstreet boys (brian/b-rok!) for me. to be honest, they were always my favorite, sorry nsync. everytime i hear one of their songs i can't help but smile and sing a long word for word. though it's still a little weird without kevin. i can't believe they've been together for 15/16 years. wow, i'm old. i think the boy band days was like the golden days of trl. it was so good back then. after the boy bands came my undying love for good charlotte so yay for the maddens being there. and they even talked about all things rock. i use to love that show. i remember having to stay up late at night to watch it but it was so good. good times. good times. then of course most recently fall out boy, too bad pete wasn't there for the performance...though he's going to be a daddy soon so that should come first. it was cool to see sisky playing bass for them though, weird but cool. i thought it was funny when they were talking to pete on the phone and quddus asked how everything was and pete was going on about going to chinatown and getting a bootleg copy of twilight and watching it like 90 something times or something. and quddus was like, "um, actually how's your wife doing?" oh pete.

    it was the end of an era for sure. at least there's f'n mtv now. maybe i'll make it out to one of their tapings now that trl is gone...or maybe not.

    well, this is an epic post. i think i mentioned like everything i could in this post. yeah, not really but close.

    till later.

    Saturday, November 15, 2008

    but recently the flames are getting out of control...

    wildfires are spreading all over so-cal. it's looks so crazy. i can even imagine how bad it must be for all those people who had to evacuate their homes. and all those people who have lost their home, it's so heartbreaking. i hope things get better but then again, last i heard it was going worst. i was watching a bit of the news last night and they were showing overhead videos of the areas with fire. so many houses were on fire, they were just glowing so bright. scary.
    i remember the fires last year. though i wasn't in california at the time i remember carl writing about how he had to be evacuated. in the end though, he and his home made it out ok.

    here's so photos from the la times website:
    here's a photo of what the sky looks like in huntington beach:
    it's covered in smoke.
    such a different scene from the last time i was there in aug:

    my heart and prayers go out to everyone affected by the fires.

    till later.

    Friday, November 14, 2008

    Thursday, November 13, 2008

    sweet dreams are made of these, who am i to disagree...

    i hate to admit it but last night i had a dream about zac efron. i seriously woke up and was like, "wtf? what was that about?" maybe it was because i mentioned him in my last post. or maybe it was because i was watching south park before i went to sleep and it was an episode mocking high school musical. but for real, it was super weird. especially, given the fact, i've never really watched those movies. not going to lie though, i've seen bits of it here and there. hmm, wonder if the 3rd is worth watching. yes/no? what i always remember zac from is summerland with j-mac!
    speaking of movies, the first thing my mom asked me when i got home today was if twilight was out yet. ok, so she didn't know the name. she called it, "that movie that you really want to watch." however, she does know that the two main actors are robert and kristin...she's one a first name basis with them, haha. idk, she saw something about it on the news today.
    anyway, i wonder if zefron will make another appereance. reminds me of the time i dreamt about justin timberlake three nights in a row. i still fully believe that he was stalking me in my dreams. those dreams really come out of nowhere since i don't think i was listen to his music or anything those nights.
    i don't know, usually when i do remember my dream they tend to be really weird and random or totally believable.
    well, sweet dreams.
    till later.

    Wednesday, November 12, 2008

    i used to waste my time dreaming of being alive...

    now i only waste my time dreaming of you.

    so i saw this magazine while i was at borders on monday but didn't get it. then recently i decided i wanted to get it and boy was that an adventure. you'd think a magazine that's pretty common would be everywhere, right? i mean i've seen them sell entertainment weekly in supermarkets. but it's like once i wanted it, it was nowhere to be found. i mean i remember when zefron was on the cover and it was everywhere. i can't tell you how many places i looked for this magazine. um, the fact that i went through that ordeal is certainly unhealthy, no? then again i fear my current obsession of anything twilight is taking an unheathly turn. oh well. the movie come out soon and hopefully once it does, it'll slowly die down.
    till later.

    Tuesday, November 11, 2008

    flowers are blowing in the wind...

    since i get free flowers every now and then from work, i've been trying new ways to display them. i recently came across this site, emerging thoughts, that had a dyi tutorial on how to make hanging vases using a lightbulb. i'm kind of liking the outcome. however, i don't know if i really like the placement of them. they're hanging from my canopy right now. i think once the flowers die i'm going to see what else i could place in them. for right now though, they're kind of fun.
    cue crappy camera phone pictures:


    till later.

    Monday, November 10, 2008

    find comfort in yourself...

    my mom's hair appointment for today was for japanese hair straightening. she use to get it done on maui and finally found someone around here that does it, though riverside is a tad out of the way, it's close enough. i used to get my hair straightened too, but as of late i've been going the natural route.
    anyway, the thing i like about driving to new places is just seeing what else is out there. the only downside is that since i'm driving i can't really take in the road side views.
    since the hair straightening technique takes a few hours to do, i had some time to kill. so what to do? hit up the mall, i guess. i was able to find one, thanks to my little gps, i don't know what i would do without it. this one mall had a sanrio surprise store with one of those coin machines that sell the $1 hello kitty phone charms that i love so much. i ended up getting one. those things are addicting. everything i tell myself i should stop i keep wanting to get more. i'm pretty sure my charms outweigh my phone itself. it's a good thing there's not one over here or else i'd have 100s of them. i also ended up buying some tights and two knit beret/beanies, cream and royal blue, from forever 21 (which we do not have in my town).
    there was still more time to kill so i went to another shopping center. this one had a big borders (my town only has a borders express but there is a big barnes and noble). and in there i found something i've been wanting to get for some time now...a mini christmas tree!
    they had them in all different sizes and colors. i went back and forth in my mind trying to pick between a white tree and a black one. in the end i went with the black because it's different and i loved it so much. and to make things even better the trees were 40% off so it came out to like $3 something. i also ended up buying some pinkish/purple led lights. i'm thinking of doing some pink, purple, white decorations. now i just have to find some.

    here's a photo that shows it's scale. i'm glad i went with the black. it goes with a lot of things in my room. i'm thinking that i might just leave the tree out all year long. it's so cute and tiny.and here what it looks like with my light off. i really like the led lights. i also had some problems as to which ones to get. there was clear, multi, and pink. i thought the pink would stand out nicely on the black tree. the lights were also 40% off.
    and after all that, there was still more time left. i ended up stoping at a goodwill (which is also not in my town) that i happened to drive by. i ended up leaving with two items.
    this was the first thing i saw that i wanted, a midtown sweatshirt. perfect for the cold weather coming up. though it's a bummer midtown is no longer together. at least there's cobra starship. for winter time i really want to get some funky sweaters so i'm keeping an eye out for them. though this one's not funky it was still a must have for the sheer fact it was a midtown sweatshirt.
    then i saw this shirt. i knew just by looking at it that it was an obey shirt. i love shepard fairey's work. everytime i think of obey prints i think of next door in chinatown since their walls are covered with them. the shirt looked brand new and it was only $1.99. sold.
    oh and i guess fairey's most recently well known print happens to be this one:after like three/four hours of exploring and shopping my mom was finally done. good thing too, i probably could have done a lot more shopping around.

    when i finally got home i had a postcard waiting for me. it was from france, from jamie. i wish i could go there. one day, maybe.

    till later.

    Sunday, November 9, 2008

    i cut like a knife and i dance just like a dream...

    going over to riverside tomorrow because my mom has a hair appointment.

    funny everytime i think of riverside i think of hellogoodbye...and their jesse buy nothing music video becuase of forrest and his "riverside ab tattoo"...and all the guys acting like "bros." i also think about j and how we use to joke around about me moving near there and being surrounded by "bros" from the 909 (though, they recently had to change the area code for some reason). let me just mention how he was very bummed when my new number did not start with 909. too be fair though, j only dislike 909-er because he comes from the o.c., huntington beach to be exact. which is also where hellogoodbye originate from, which might explain their dig on riverside "bros" as well. idk, some kind of territory rivalry or something, haha.

    i have always thought it was cute that jesse wrote this song as an actual way to ask some girl to prom. too bad hellogoodbye will no longer be preforming this being that jesse is no longer in the band...along with chris and marcus. in fact, it's pretty much just forrest that's left. well, aaron, the original drummer is back. though isn't hellogoodbye really just forrest anyways...yeah, idk. i remember seeing them play in hawaii (twice) and it was so much fun. i wonder how different their shows will be now. i sure still just as fun though.

    till later.

    Saturday, November 8, 2008

    sleeping to dream...

    all i know is that i'm extremely happy about the possibility of getting to sleep in tomorrow morning.

    i don't know if it's my body still trying to adjust to the hour time change or the fact it's getting darker sooner or something totally different but i'm been so tired.

    in closing...

    sleep = good,
    sleeping in = MEGA good.

    till later.

    Friday, November 7, 2008

    do the hellen keller and talk with your hips...

    someone called in today to place an order. when i asked for their address, they informed me that they were from colorado. that's no biggie, we get call-in orders from all over. then she gave me her phone number, area code...303, which also shouldn't have been a big deal. of course, i've being listening to 3oh!3 for the last few weeks now so when she said that all i could do was chant 3...oh!...3...oh!...3, over and over in my head. i can't help it. they're music is just so dance worthy...lots of mini dance parties happen either alone in my room or in my car. colorado sunrise is probably my favorite song of theirs...kind of makes me want to go to colorado just to see the sunrise. then again, i guess i woundn't mind just going anywhere.

    well, their latest video for don't trust me is pretty funny, just like their other videos...

    in fact...
    here's holler till you pass out -

    so funny.
    and...
    here's electroshock! -

    dance party, here i come.

    oh and in the newest issuse of ap there's an article on sean and nat...3oh!3.

    you know you're listening to a band way too much when they start to make their way into your dreams.

    till later.

    Thursday, November 6, 2008

    which came first the music or the misery...

    tonight's episode of ugly betty totally hurt my heart. no lie. i guess it's because i've seen myself in that exact situation more times than i want to remember.
    more often than not, cruches always seem to leave one crush'd. tonight's episode paralleled, mostly betty's storyline of course, things i've gone through. from the very start of the show, when betty plans the accidental bump-in...yeah, i've done that. it started off cute and sweet, like most crushes do, making me want to have a crush. and he even sang to her. then of course comes the ups and downs. "does he like me?" at one point betty mentions sounding stupid when she's around him...that's totally me. words tend to fall out of my mouth faster than normal and i end up doing things which i later cannot even start to explain (she threw him a party!).
    so here's the thing. something i've been thinking about for awhile now...i think i tend to mistake friendliness for something more. i read into things too much and a simple friendly gesture will turn into me attaching myself to someone who isn't even interested. so, sure when betty catches her crush jesse kissing amanda it was painful (hate to say it but i've been there too). but what really got to me was aterwards when betty was telling daniel how jesse called her beautiful and how she should have know he ment on the inside. at that moment i knew exactly what she felt. for months i've been questioning on how i'm not good enough and why didn't he like me.
    yeah, this episode really reminded me of how bad a crush can get and why it's a good thing i don't have one at the moment. remember, the last boy i had a crush on was douchebag ****. it's those arty boys you have to watch out for, i tell ya...too bad their the ones i tend to fall for.
    all the while i couldn't help but think how all this reminds me of kate nash's song we get on. i worte an entry (my last one) on my old blog about how this song was perfect for my situation. and it's totally perfect for betty's one too...like for real. crazy, how songs can perfectly capture moments in everyone's life. sad though, since a lot of kate's song remind me of douchebag, so i hardly listen to them and more...though they are so good.

    We Get On
    Simply knowing you exist
    Ain't good enough for me
    But asking for your telephone number
    Seems highly inappropriate

    Seeing as I can't
    Even say hi
    When you walk by

    And that time you shook my hand
    It felt so niceI swear I never feel
    This way about any other guy
    And I never usually notice people's eyes but

    I conducted a plan
    To bump into you most accidentally
    But I was walking along
    And I bumped into you much more heavily
    Than I'd originally planned
    It was well embarrassing and
    I think you thought that I was a bit of a twat

    I just think that we'd get on
    I wish I could tell you face to face
    Instead of singing this stupid song
    But yeah I just think that we might get on

    So I went to that party and everyone
    They were kind of arty
    And I was wearing this dress
    Because I wanted to impress
    But I wasn't sure if I looked my best
    'Cause I was so nervous
    But I carried on regardless
    Strutting through each room
    Trying to find you

    And when I saw you
    Kissing that girl
    My heart it shattered
    And my eyes, they watered
    And when I tried to speak I stuttered

    And my friends were like whatever
    You'll find someone better
    His eyes were way too close together
    And we never even liked him from the start
    And now he's with that tart
    And I heard she done some really nasty stuff
    Down in the park with Michael
    He said she's easy
    And if your guy's with someone that's sleazy
    Then he ain't worth your time
    'Cause you deserve a real nice guy

    So I proceeded to get drunk and cry
    And lock myself in the toilets
    For the entire night

    Saturday night
    I watched channel five
    I particularly liked CSI

    I don't ever dream
    About you and me
    I don't ever make up stuff about us
    That would be considered insanity
    I don't ever drive by your house to see if you're in
    I don't even have an opinion
    On that tramp that you're still seeing
    I don't know your timetable
    I don't know your face off by heart
    But I must admit
    That there is still a part of me
    That thinks we might get on
    That we could get on
    That we should get on
    -kate nash

    i'm lying...i wish i had a crush right now, haha.

    till later.

    Wednesday, November 5, 2008

    hello, hello kitty. hello dear friend...

    i didn't have to go to work until later in the afternoon so i stopped by the mall. because of all the election maddness of yesterday, i totally forgot that the twilight soundtrack dropped yesterday. it was also suppose to be the day the new fall out boy record would come out but we now know it has been pushed back until december.
    -sidenote: although, fob's new cd did not come out that day, i did get the latest issuse of ap in the mail featuring the fall out boy (sucks/rules) cover. and bonus, there's a little article about jackson rathbone who plays jasper hale in twilight. sweet!
    alright back to the topic at hand. i went to hot topic to pick up the cd i had pre-ordered. while there i was looking at the clearance area, trying to find the neville shirt (they only have small sizes, same as the website, bummed). i did, however, find some hello kitty shirts on sale and of course i had to get them.
    during halloween time they had a bunch of really cute, monster related hello kitty shirts. i wanted to get them but not for $20. they're on sale now, though they only have two of the designs left. i got the vampire one, of course. guess what i'm wearing to watch twilight? dork.
    i kind of want to get the other one too.

    i thought this one was so cute. aw, sad hello kitty. love.
    of course this is a play on lichtenstein's artwork which makes it even more awesome.
    then i saw this shirt. i had to get it just for the fact that dear daniel is on it. i love him. i wish he was on more stuff. the front says "he love me" and the back says "he love me not."

    i went and got starbucks after. i was wearing my over it hoodie and as i was waiting for my drink some random dude came up to me and said, "i'm glad you're over it." i explained how it's for a band but could also be a statement. he said it would have been perfect for when he and his girlfriend broke up. i'm the worst with random conversations. if they don't keep talking, i usually don't know what to say and then there is the awkward silences. let's just say i was glad when my order was ready.
    it's starting to get dark super early nowadays. i always think it's later than it really is.
    as for the soundtrack, i guess i'll be listening to it for awhile. should be good since there's some good/interesting music peeps on it (muse, mutemath, linkin park, iron and wine, perry farrell, and of course rpattz).
    till later.

    Tuesday, November 4, 2008

    yes we can!!!

    Barack Obama elected 44th President of the United States!!!

    history has been made.
    change is happening.

    and because i love this video:

    till later.

    Monday, November 3, 2008

    take on me...

    while lurking about, i happened upon this amazing video:

    the original version is one of my favorite 80's music video.
    i found this too funny.
    and since i didn't really do anything post worthy today, why not share this awesomeness.

    till later.

    Sunday, November 2, 2008

    remembering sunday...

    first off, the start of daylight savings went well since i set my alarm clock back before bed (luckily, cell phone re-sets itself). though, my mom didn't do that and wroke me up an hour earlier. i just went back to sleep until it was the right time.

    anyway, i ended up driving up to lakewood which is like an hour or so away to all time low's instore acoutic preformance/signing at the best buy over there at noon. since every concert is always at night and like an hour away i figure this might be the only time i could see them. i'm not really down with driving for an hour so late at night alone. so until i find someone to go with or i move somewhere closer this will have to do.

    like always i got off to a late start but got there before they started. i don't know why i continue to put myself in these uncomfortable sistuations. so many youngin's and ugh, the scene kids. i think i'm getting too old for this stuff. i guess it's lucky that i look younger than i am (i've been told that a lot) otherwise i'd totally look at of place. the staff made us sit on the ground while we waited for them to start. i overheard one work saying how there was so many more people than when gym class heroes were there. she also said how she had no idea who the band was only that they have pictures in their underware. i ended up chatting a little with a girl next to me before it started. she liked my pants.

    they had an opening band that played called eye alaska. i liked their songs, i wish i could remember the names of them. one of their members looked like a mixture of zack from atl and danny from np.

    the guy in the tank with the beanie is that member. he had some nice arms.their new cd is called yellow elephant, two of my favorite things . i wanted to get it just for the name but i didn't get the chance.

    then the atl boys come in. thank goodness the wait wasn't long. oh and nick (runner runner) was there! i sort of thought he might show up since zack and him are pretty much brothers. i wanted to yell out to him but i was kind of in the back and it was just too far. anyway, during their acoutic sets it is always alex that sings, of course, and zack, who plays guitar...which i always thought was weird since he's the bass player. jack and rian kind of just hung out in the back.

    zach and alex take the "stage."
    alex: "i will not take off my shirt. this is a family store."
    zack: "i'm not taking off my shirt either. sorry."
    alex: "don't do it. don't do it."
    to which the guy in front of me loudly disapproved. no lie.
    jack creeping in the background on zack's right. alex: "i'm clumsy...like fergie."
    - there's rian creeping in the background now, watching alex. alex's new hair. shorter and darker. he played the last song, remembering sunday, solo.

    atl's set list:
    dear maria, count me in
    six feet under the stars
    jasey rae
    remembering sunday

    after they played they got set-up for the signing. it took awhile. of course getting people in line was a hard task. after waiting for what seemed like a long time in a non-moving line they said there was only 20 mintues left and i was still towards the back. however, if you bought their cd you could get to the front. i already had the cd but i thought since i drove all this way why not just get it again, i could always keep it in the plastic and re-sell it or something. though i can't seem to find the cd of my copy so maybe i'll just keep it.

    signed cd cover.
    i was one of the last few people to get in. we weren't suppose to take photos so we snuck this one in quickly. don't the boys look happy? at least i now i have a picture with rian.

    after them was jack. i love jack! he was my favorite when they played in hawaii. anyway, he signed my cd and when i went to grab it he was still holding on to it so i said, "i guess you can have it if you really want it." he was like, "what?" i told him how he was still holding on to my cd. he looked down at it, apologized saying he was about to pass out. poor jack, i hope he got some rest before the show that night. then he held up his hand up like he wanted a high 5 so i put mines up too. then he press his hand against mines and locked fingers. so we held hands for awhile. it was cute but also confusing. reminded me of when i met jared leto and he made me give him a fist pound followed by a double fist pound.

    zack was last. i asked him if nick was still there. he said he had to leave to get ready for the show (i really wish i could have gone). i asked him if he could tell nick i said hi. he said of course and then said "in fact, i'm going to text him right now." he already had his phone out. he has a white blackberry cruve. so i told him to tell nick "josie from hawaii said hi." to which jack perked up and said, "you're from hawaii?!" i told him how i saw them when they played there and jack said, "pipeline, right?" then zack was telling me how he was going to move out to california soon and he's hoping to do surf trips to hawaii and maybe we'll see each other there, though i think he'll probably make more trip out there than i will. zack asked if i was from oahu and i said i went to school there but i'm from maui. then we were talking about nick again and he told me how they're pretty much sharing a room right now, cute. i told him i had seen nick there earlier and was bummed i couldn't say hi. then this girl, who thought she was so cool, interupted and was all like "who?" so i said nick from runner runner and she said, "oh, i don't know who that is." um, i wasn't talking to her but whatever. i just told her he's zack's brother. to which zack smiled and said yeah. i did tell zack how i know the story behind that though. so, now i'm spreading that rumor around too, haha. i don't know why some people think zack's a douche, he's always been really nice to me the both times i've met him. he's just sort of shy and doesn't talk much to people. i just have an "in" because of nick, haha.

    i guess it was good thing i was one of the last few since i got to talk to them for awhile. i didn't want to stay too long since they needed to go and had a couple more people to meet so i got a hug and left.

    here's some short video clips i took during the instore:

    they did a song of their ep and played jasey rae. yay, i love that song.


    here's alex playing remembering sunday.
    at one point he stops to listen to the store announcement.
    "wait...wait...thanks debra!"

    and pictures from when i met them in feb. at pipeline just because:alex with his old hair.jack!

    zack and my over it shirt, haha.

    till later.

    Saturday, November 1, 2008

    maybe i should hate you for this, never really did ever quite get that far...

    this was written (almost) a year ago.

    saturday, november 03, 2007
    and i found this boy...
    yesterday was a rollercoster of emotions...and the ride continues on. i'm a girl, i tend to over think things. isn't it just my luck that when things might actually start to look up, it turns out it's just not that easy. my heart is beating out of my chest, my head is spinning out of control, my stomach is fluttering away, and my feet won't touch the ground. i replay every moment of the night...the amazing parts and the heartbreaking ones as well. i freaked out...but i stayed, twice. i wanted to stay in the moment as long as i could.
    he's just too...too cute, too sweet, too cool, too awesome, too talented...and because of that, someone else wants him too.
    but maybe, just maybe he might like me...
    the things he does, the things he said, the glances across the room, his touch.
    i liked having the feeling that it was just us, i liked that i had to tippy toe to reach him, i like that we could just look into each other's eyes and just know, i liked that he pulled me in, i liked thinking about it...
    i disliked the mix signals, i disliked the games, i disliked that she was so nice and maybe we could have been friends, i disliked the awkwardness of the situation, i disliked thinking about it...
    for the first time that i can ever remember, i put my heart on the line...and it's killing me.
    i need to know.
    i am such a teenage girl.

    dammit, i like you.


    it happened so long ago. yet, sometimes it feels like it was just yesterday. ugh. re-reading what i wrote is kind of sad. i can't believe i ever felt that way toward him and how much it hurt me. i should have known. i mean there was so many signs and so many times i almost left that night. "just stand next to the bouncer" will always be the best advice i should have followed but didn't.

    how funny, he shall forever be remembered as "that douchebag ****" by my friends and me (and even some people that don't even know him). i remember when i first pointed him at to laura's sister and adam, they both said (at different times) that he even looked like a douchebag. so i guess the name really fits him in ways both inside and out.

    i must admit though, that emotional rollercoaster did produce some creative outlets for me like the haiku on top (the last line came from a message i got from np danny about this), a painting i wish i kept, some yellow sweater songs (titles): don't be stupid - tell her you like her (MAN-UP!!!) and i hate you...let's hangout! and inspiration for one of my prints:

    your heart is just as empty as the banner on your heart tattoo.
    i should have saw that as a sign.
    hopefully, my heart no longer will read as broken.

    *********
    today at work i had to help out at a wedding. the flowers came out really nice. the cake smelled really good. it was so hard being so close and not licking it. i hope their wedding day was everything they wanted. it's good to know that sometimes you do find the one you're meant to be with.
    daylight savings starts tomorrow. i never had to do it before. i'm paranoid that i'll forget and be late for stuff. if i can re-set time on my clocks, why can't i re-set time in my life? just wondering.
    till later.