long days and stargaers...

i've come to the conclusion that stargazer/starfighter lilies are probably my favorite flowers. not only are the beautiful but the smell amazing. (the blue orchids are quiet pretty too, though)

today was the second night in a row that i left work later than usual. as the days get closer to v-day, things just start to pile up and gets busier and busier. hopefully, i make it out of this fake holiday ok, haha.

but getting to take home flowers are always a joy. i usually get to take home a bunch every so often and give them to my mom. but i keep a stem or two in a vase on my night table/self-made stool next to my bed.

lovely.

till later.

every good painter paints what he is...

dear google,
thank you for letting me know that today was jackson pollock's birthday.i had always been intrigued by his art and his method. last spring i took a contemporary art history class that i just loved. all the artist, all the artwork, everything was fascinating. and of course pollock was one of the first artist we learned about, my first paper centering mainly on him. anyway, it was a pleasant surprise to see this when i went on google today:haha, my first thought when i saw that was, wtf? did google just pull a pollock? is it his birthday or something? and yes, it was. this has to be one of my favorite of their altered logos. i bet there's a page somewhere that shows them all, huh? oh and what was even cooler (because i'm dorky and find things like this cool) is that when you go to jacksonpollock.org it's a blank white screen but when you click and move you're mouse around you get to create a drip painting yourself. mine's is not nearly as amazing as a pollock, but it was pretty fun to make:i hope to one day see a pollock in person. and i believe there is one at the museum of contemporary art in los angeles. hopefully, i make my way over there soon.till later.

the no-brainer...

spent all day in bed and now i'm watching fringe.
lazy. lazy. lazy.
i started watching this show last week. i've been fan of joshua jackson since his mighty ducks days and pacey was the only likeable thing on dawson's (even when jensen joined the cast) and so i wanted to watch it when it first started but never caught it...until last week. i must say, though somewhat distrubing, e.g., gaint slugs coming out of people's mouths and people's brains coming out of their ears, it is quite interesting. damn, jj abrams, stop making me want to watch your stuff. first lost, now this, and let's not even get started on star trek (i'll spare you yet another zachary quinto rant). i do enjoy the fact that right before fringe goes to commercial, they give you a heads up of how long the break it...and it's usually way shorter than usual. more show, less breaks, that's a plus in my book.great, yet another show i'm going to get hooked on (maybe). now, i need to play catch-up...with this show, with this blog, and with this life.
till later.

11:11 PM (CST)

this boy walked into the flower shop today to order a corsage. no biggie, right? right. that's standard, especially since winter formal is coming up. as i took down his name i noticed that his last name was cullen. omg, you don't even know how hard it was for me to control myself from blurting out anything and everything about twilight. yeah, i didn't want to be that girl. i bet there have been a few teenage girls in his classes that have already pointed out such connections to him already. sadly though, he was no edward, or emmett, or jasper, or even carlisle for that matter.

anyway, tonight, supernatural decided to use one of my favorite words over and over again within the show. "douche bag". i mean "criss angel is a douche bag"...amazing title. i couldn't believe that was the real deal when i first heard it but it was! ah, perfection. and even though, pete wentz thinks that word is outdated and overused, i don't care (pun may or may not be intended). everytime i use it, say it, or hear it, i can't help but smile a little both on the inside as well as the outside. yeah, i'm a dork...deal. haha. oh and the guy that played jeb tonight, he looks so familar and was so hot. it's had to be the eyeliner. i guess it's still a weakness.

and then i watched l.a. ink. which only leaves me longing for a tattoo. one day (hopefully). but on tonight episode nick wheeler from the all-american rejects got a tattoo. cute his dog. everytime i see him i think about how amazing he is when he's playing his guitar. i don't normally think he's like super hot or anything but when he plays his guitar...oh.my.gosh. as laura would say, "he is the sex." i've got to see aar play three time (all in 2006) and each time i stood right in front of him. he's just super bendy and stuff, hot. plus, i caught two of his picks, one of his towels, and met him twice. he's was really chill. i now leave you with a pic spam of some of my concerts photos (because they make me happy and entries are always better with photos):

my favorite photo i took of him.see, bendy.we also often tend to make eye contact when he's on stage...
different show. same smile. same connection. haha.and this was the second time we met. this time with laura. aw, he's super sweet.

many good times. i keep meaning to pick up (or download) the new aar record but just haven't yet. maybe sometime soon. and maybe then i'll finally stop with the non-stop fob's fad...cause that can't be all i listen to, right.
till later.

my president is black, in fact he's half white...

3 days --
5 trips to the mall --
2 iced chai lattes with soy --
1 awesome coffee sleeve --
2 (3, if counting my mom's) yummy cupcakes --
6 radio shack workers --
2 ac adapters (neither of which was mines) --
and finally, the dvd player is now back in action: geez, so much trouble for such a little thing. any guesses as to what's/who's on screen...hmm. anyway, like i stated above i got another cupcake today. i seriously grab the local paper now just for the coupon. good thing the paper's free (and i know where to get them, my work being one of the places). this time my mom got one too. i got the same thing from yesterday and my mom got a vanilla cupcake with cream chesse and graham crackers. next time i go back i'm getting something different...i was just so frazzled (yeah, i don't know why) i couldn't think about trying something new.


My president is black, in fact he’s half white
So even in a racists mind he's half right
If you got a racists mind you'd be alright
My president is black but his house is all white
Rosa Parks sat so Martin Luther could walk
Martin Luther walked so Barack Obama could run
Barack Obama ran so all the children could fly
So Ima spread my wings you can meet me in the sky

the ladies at the shop have some interesting political conversations with each other. i just tend to hang back and do more listening than talking. i just rather take the positive outlook on things now. it makes life livable...hopefully, i can keep that up.

and now i'll return to being lost while watching lost.

till later.

cupcake, inauguration, and coffee sleeves...

well, today was a little better than yesterday. i did end up going back to mall, though the problem is still not fix...and doesn't look like it will be. can't i just get back my charger. who knows if that will even help. it is still usable, so i guess it'll have to do for now. but i did leave the mall with two of my favorite things:

a red velvet cupcakes with cream cheese frosting and pink sugar and an iced chai latte with soy!!! yummy!!!there is this pretty new (i remember it opening in like nov/dec) cupcake store in the mall and i got a coupon for a free mini cupcake out of the local paper. i ended up upgrading it for $1.50 more because the mini was pretty mini and i knew i'd end up wanting more. not only did it look pretty but it was quite tasty. i think i'm going to stock up on those coupons and get one whenever i'm at the mall (i think the coupons expires sometime in feb).

then i went to starbucks for my chai and their coffee/hot sleeves were in honor of inauguration day:though my drink was not hot, i grab myself one. i wonder if other places had different sleeves? probably. maybe.

and i just need to say, i couldn't help but laugh at myself as i walked around the mall carrying around my little cupcake like it was something of importance. but hey, to me it was, haha.

so today was a pretty good day and not just because of the cupcake (though cupcakes can always make a bad day turn out better). today was a good day because today is a new day. with a new president. with a new start. with a new outlook.

on days like this, it's hard not to think things are pretty good...well, until the next time i have a breakdown or another one of my "moments."

till later.

you're all kinds of beautiful as you end my day...

the sky was beautiful today. on such a pretty day, i just wish my day hadn't been so bad. i took this photo on my third trip to the mall of the today...and after all that the dvd player still isn't quite perfect. so, i guess it's another trip tomorrow.

till later.

buzz buzz buzz doc there's a hole where something was...

intro/Disloyal Order of Water Buffaloes:
I'm coming apart at the seams
Pitching myself for leads in other people's dreams now
Buzz buzz buzz Doc there's a hole where something was
Doc there's a hole where something was...

Fell out of bed
Butterfly bandage
But don't worry
You'll never remember
Your head is far too blurry

Put him in the back of a squad car restrain that man
He needs his head put through a catscan
Hey editor, I'm undeniable
Hey doctor, I'm certifiable

I'm a loose bolt of a complete machine
What a match, I'm half doomed and you're semi-sweet

So boycott love
Detox just to retox
I'd promise you anything for another shot at life
Perfect boys with their perfect lives
Nobody wants to hear you sing about tragedy
Wants to hear you sing about tragedy

Little girl
You got me staring odd
Or was that just a telescopic camera nod
Painted dolls
In highway truckstop stalls
Lot lizard scales cool your nightlife moods
All the rookies leave your badge and your gun on the desk
When you leave the room

I'm a loose bolt of a complete machine
What a match, I'm half doomed and you're semi-sweet

So boycott love
Detox just to retox
I'd promise you anything for another shot at life
Perfect boys with their perfect lives
Nobody wants to hear you sing about tragedy
Wants to hear you sing about tragedy

Detox
Just to retox
Detox
Just to retox
Detox
Just to retox
Detox
Just to retox

So boycott love
Detox just to retox
I'd promise you anything for another shot at life
Perfect boys with their perfect lives
Nobody wants to hear you sing about tragedy
Wants to hear you sing about tragedy
--fall out boy

i have been seriously listening to this record since it came out. i really need some new music...
but this is just so good.

till later.

nobody ever told her it's the wrong way...

"joshene"

my cup from today. oh, starbucks and your creatvie ways. though maybe it's my fault. i really should just make it easier for them...jo, josie, feeny(?...haha).

**********

also, how is it that everything comes out wrong?
when i express myself, i'm wrong.
when i hold it in, i'm wrong.
i keep waiting for the day when everything turns out right.
but then again, even when i'm right...
i'm wrong.
it's never ever really a win/win.
and i really should just learn to let it go.

till later.

eye of the tiger...

i wish supernatural was on before smallville, that way i could watch a full episode without having to switch between it and the office. i also wish my nights didn't heavily revolve around tv show. but since it does, it would be ideal for me if these show could be switched. i didn't even know smallville was still on. i was never a huge fan of that show so much but i remember how kua loved that show (and lana). anyway, supernatural, just like oth, when the show switched over to the cw, i lost track of it and am just now trying to get back into the show. i still don't even know how or why dean was in hell? i guess i could try to catch up online somewhere. idk. ah, but i use to love jensen ackles...so much so that i wrote to him once and got this in return.this was back during his days of our lives /eric brady days. haha, i like how i kept this. i remember how bummed i was when they canceled dark angel when he was on the show. then he was on dawson's creek...and smallville, though i never watched it (like i said, not a huge smallville watcher). he's so funny...

i especially enjoyed his ending story about paris and nikki. however, i think i'll be passing on seeing my bloody valentine:3d, even though i love jensen and i do enjoy 3d...

and then there's this, amazing:

everytime i hear that song i think of the night we got crazy kyle's friend to wear a tigger suit, which he happen to have in his car (was it "dick-on-a-bed's" costume? i remember him showing up as tigger to at least two different parties?) and sang eye of the tiger in the movable karaoke hut.but now i have a major headache and so i guess i'll call it an early night.

till later.

my heart is on my sleeve...

at work we finally began the process of taking down and packing away the christmas stuff. we are also getting ready for the next big holiday...valentine's day. ugh. as long as i can remember i have always hated valentine's day. come on, it's not even a real holiday. i could go into my big, long rant about how valentine's day is pointless and depressing but maybe i'll save that for another time. though i can't help but think that the only reason i detest said (fake) holiday is because i've never had a (real) valentine. sure, i have had friends who have tried to make the day less horrible. i even remember when heno, who loves v-day, went out of her way to get me in the valentine mood by getting me a little red and white valentine's day stuff doggie and placed it on my bed when i got home from classes that day (this was when we lived together). but i can't help but feel like this year will be the worst one yet (even though last year, the last person i wanted to see that day ended up the first person i ran into...). it's just this year, i'll be more alone than ever. i won't have friends to share the day with. and to make matters worst i work at a florist! having to take orders from people who are sending/buying things for someone they care about yet none of it will be sent to me. and having to type out short little love notes that i'll never get. it's going to be beyond depressing.
oops. i said i was going to save my rant for another day. oh well. i'm sure as the day draws closers similar entries will follow.

till later.

3 words, 8 letters...

"...love-love, serena and venus, mars, veronica, wimbledon courtside servin stellar gin and tonic-as..."
genius, true fact. oh chuck, how do you do it? but please, stop now...soon i'll start to hate you. let's hopes his heart is actually breaking and this will change things for the better. and i am not pleased with uncle bass, though he is pretty to look at. i hate how the preview made this episode look juicier than it actually was. what happened to the "blair wouldn't touch you" line? and nate's back, finally, though he was kind of pointless in this episode. the only really good thing about this episode were the return of the mini gossip girls...that part made me laugh. oh and the line chuck had about wearing "a lot of purple" was perfect.

but while tonight's gg was a little lackluster one tree hill was pretty enjoyable. even though heroes doesn't come back till a few more weeks, at least i do get the chance to watch full episodes of oth until then.

speaking of one tree hill, i went to watch bride wars with my mom today. it was a cute movie with a couple of funny parts. but the best thing about the movie (and the only real reason i really wanted to watch it) is that bryan greenberg is in it. though, he's not in it nearly enough. everytime he came on screen i couldn't help but think "jake!" i hated when he left oth. i thought him and peyton were so cute together...though i understand that it has to be lucas and peyton in the end.

i think the moment jake became a favorite was this:

jake/bryan singing elliot smith. lovely.
till later.

zacharys, globes, and the joker...

mr. quinto was looking good at the golden globes. i'm not even a star trek fan but i cannot wait for this movie to come out. i didn't even know he was going to be there, let alone be presenting. when i heard his name, not going to lie, i got pretty excited.

and speaking of zacharys, zac efron was presenting before him (with quinto's fellow heroes co-star hayden) and all i could think about was how i wish it was zachary quinto instead of zefron...and what do you know, quinto was right there waiting for zefron to get off the stage. why don't i dream of quinto instead of zefron...who happened to make another cameo in my dream last night. really, what's with that? dude needs to step off. i don't know why my mind settled on him. it's weird.

anyway, i'm just happen heath won. he was amazing as the joker. he just really made that role and everytime i watch him in it i totally forget that it's heath. it's so unlike him...the joker comes through everytime...and isn't that what a good performance does, makes you forget the actor is playing the role and makes you really believe they are that role.

and watching the globes makes me want to watch slumdog millionaire. i need to go find it.

till later.

chai, traffic, and music...

work was short today.
it was so slow and dead.
which isn't so bad for me since i didn't have much to do...
though having nothing to do is not always a good thing.
too boring.
good thing i only worked till one.

i got a ice chai before heading home.
i guess it is cheaper now (or cheaper in here) since it's only like $2.45 or something for a tall instead of $3 something was (or is in hawaii), though i only had to pay the $3 something if my starbucks boy wasn't working, haha.

the drive took forever to get home since there was yet another accident.
seriously, like i've said, i've seen more car accidents since i've been here then all the years i've lived in hawaii.
i always find it interesting how once you pass the actual accident scene it's smooth sailing from there, like everyone disburses.

i ended up going to walmart with mom and i bought some new frames (which i posted photos of in the pervious post). i was so happy to have found a 11"x17" frame since all my band posters are that size. though i don't think i'll ever be able to buy a frame for everyone of them, at least i know they exist if i really, really need some. there was only one left which was fine since i just wanted one for my fob print.

speaking of which, the new fob cd has permanently made it's home in my car's cd player. it's so good. i keep finding new songs i just love. though, maybe i should listen to something else once in awhile. i kind of want the new all-american rejects cd. i wonder if it's any good. they hold a very special place in my heart because of their concerts i've been to. i've seen them three times, and each time held such good memories. plus nick playing his guitar...woah.

i'm so glad i have tomorrow and monday off. maybe now i can finish cleaning up my room since i've started to more things around.

till later.

hate me baby, maybe i'm a piece of art...

when i got home today i had a nice brown shipping tube leaning next to my bed. i already knew what was inside and was so excited to open it. right when i was about to rip right into it i saw this little note: "open gently." i don't know why but i thought that was so cute. so i "gently" opened the top and unrolled the brown paper around it:

my jay ryan print came in today! it's even prettier in person. i love.love.love it. looking at it i'm thinking it's like a 4 drop print, 3 plus key. i love the color bends in it. i always loved doing color blends when i did litho, it always came out so cool looking. but dang, registration was always so hard for me. for the most part, everything usually came out looking fine. anyway, now all i need is a frame.

*****

edit: i bought a frame and the print now has it's very own spot on my wall:

ah, looks so good hung up and framed. though now it just makes me want to get more. i love the way posters look framed. i wish i could frame all my art stuff. too bad that cost money. then again that doesn't stop me and i actually have a few up and framed. if i ever get my room clean enough, my "art wall" will get photographed.

for now here's one corner of room. so there's my new jay ryan print, above that is my fall out boy/folie a deux print (which is in a new frame as well, i finally found one that's 11"x17"), the huge poster/frame is twilight, which i've already posted about, and the one under it is one of my lithographs i did based on over it's song, where the sky begins, and happens to be the first time i did a color blend. i just ended up framing it today, using the old frame i had for my fob/fad poster which was too big for that print. oh and you can also see a bit of my 4'x4' painting peeking out on the side. as you can see i really don't have much room for more...but you never know.

till later.

shake, shake, shake, shake it...

4.5 earthquake.
i think this is the second one i've felt since moving to california.

whenever i think of earthquakes i always think about that one earthquake during fall '06.
i remember having gone out the night before with jamie and laura and staying out pretty late.
when my bed started shaking i was too tired to get up and just laid there and went back to sleep.
thinking back on it, i probably should have gotten up. luckily, all was safe. however, the power was knocked out for the whole day.
i remember hanging out with jamie, laura, elise, and leigh (and others). eating hot dogs in the "horror film-like" setting of the cafe with the flood lights and plastic forks and knives. watching napoleon dynamite on elise's computer until the battery ran out half-way through. drinking warm beer. taking photos in the dark. making shadows on the ceiling with the flashlights. playing skip-bo in the dark with flashlights. walking to gateway to use the bathrooms. and i also remember how everyone thought that classes the next day would be canceled since there was no power...then at like around 11 that night the power came back on. everyone was pretty much bummed.
good time, good time.

this earthquake was not as epic.
i was setting on the floor in my room, fixing up my tv dvds when everything started to shake.

and now i'm in the middle of moving stuff around in my room...again...for the hundredth time...because i'm never happy with the way i have my stuff.

till later.

the last good thing about this part of town...

usually when i have time off it means having to drive my mom around to places.

one of our stops was to old town. like the name states, it's filled with lots of old buildings. i love it down there, it's like a different world. these photos are from another time i went there but didn't upload them till now: the shop on the left is where we went to today. it's a jewelry store where my mom gets her watch batteries changed, it's cheapest there.

there's a wooden windmill and water barrel thing out in the front. that day at one of the inns there were a bunch of guys and classic cars outside. man those cars were amazing. my dream car has always been an old-school classic type car. i just think they're so pretty and so unique. i wish i could have taken better pictures of the cars there but there was a lot of dudes near them and so i did get too close.

i was able to get a decent photo of this one car though. come on, how awesome is that?

there were some paintings outside one of the shops leaning against a wooden cart thing.

lots of the buildings are made of wood, a lot of them looked like this one.

this sign was outside of a candy store. it said: don't be fooled. this store is huge and much more than *candy* come in a see for yourself. we're friendly. i did not go in but i thought the sign was cute. maybe next time.

and before we left i spotted this coming down the road:

it reminds me of bella's truck...but a lot nicer looking.

we only made one stop today so there wasn't any new pictures to take since we didn't walk around. but like i said i really like it down there. one day i need to just explore what else is there. i bet there are a bunch of cute little shops. i know they have a bunch of restaurants. i need to check them out too.

anyway, another stop we made today was one i wanted to go to:

pinkberry!!! it was a pretty warm day. it was perfect weather for yummy-yummy pinkberry.original with fuirty pebbles. so yummy. so good.so sad, it's almost gone. i guess seeing them eating it on gossip girl monday night made me really want some. just looking at these photos makes me want more.

till later.

love is...

while cleaning flowers today i found some new newspaper clippings i thought were cute:

love is...

...sometimes like a rubik's cube.love is...

...feeling you are at a crossroads.

ah, i love them. now i'm going to have to be on the look out for them whenever flower day comes around.

the whole "love is..." thing reminds me of when my friend kelsey did a project for one of her art classes in which she had people draw/write on a blanket what their idea of love is and then she embroidered them onto the blanket. this of course was when i was really jaded about the idea of love so i wrote something negative like "love is overrated" or something along those lines. i remember hanging out with her in the gallery while she was embroiding and this guy came in, who i knew was a friend of d.bag. he read what i wrote and said how whoever wrote this sounded really depressing, to which i told him i wrote it. anyway to make a long story even longer we ended up talking and i told him the story of mr. douchebag and why i felt the way i did. what make it funny was the fact thay he totally agreed with me on how this unnamed guy was such a jerk, little did he know this guy just happened to be a friend of his. i'm just glad i'm not that jaded anymore.

till later.

childlike wildlife...

ah, new episodes of gossip girl and one tree hill tonight. i didn't even know. so good. though i still want heroes.
anyway, today was back to work after another long weekend+ off. it was nice while it lasted.
the sky looked so pretty on my way home. i really need to not take photos while driving. and when i got home this was waiting for me:

my mom made a trip to target today and got me this. it was on sale. how much do i love target. dude, my room totally looks like it belongs to a 13 year old girl, and this comforter just pushes it over the edge. maybe it's a good thing i don't have a boy in my life...i don't think "he" could handle the overload of my childlike girliness. whatever, i love it. oh and look what's on it: they have a hula dancing, uku playing, tan hello kitty for hawaii. i love tan hello kitty, she always reminds me of hawaii, how perfect.

and a marilyn monroe overly made up with make-up hello kitty for california. along with my two homes (they both have palm trees), they have a showgirl vegas kitty, a statue of liberty kitty with a big apple for the big apple, a mardi gras (non-girls gone wild style) kitty for new orleans, a cowgirl kitty for texas, and a bikini wearing hello kitty riding a dolphin for what i believe would be florida (miami).
and yes there was more.

a package from my cousin in japan also came today. and she got me a bunch of things:

this is a better idea of the coloring of the bag. it's black with silver with a scale-like texture to it. the bow is my favorite part of the bag.

she also got me this hello kitty wallet. i love it but i also really love my wallet now. though maybe it is time for a change. plus my wallet now really is just a little too small at times.and i just thought this was the cutest thing, if i could i would attach it to my phone. but i'm already on charm overload, so it's home will be on the bag.

see totally childlike girliness overload. it can be a bit much sometimes huh?

till later.