...until august fell

Dreamt I was back with the pirates and cats of my sommerville
The girl in the alphabet shirt covered in dirt lives on the hill

Well, my sweet Josephine,
Are you still racing stray dogs
Across the old stream?
My neighborhood queen,
Are you still kissing cowboys that cry, Josephine?

She stole, my grandmother's watch, a treasure to touch
To keep time to herself
Her mind, was a very big house, we got lost there for hours
Until August fell.

Well, my sweet Josephine
Are you still racing stray dogs
Across the old stream?
My neighborhood queen,
Are you still kissing cowboys that cry, Josephine?

You say you're alright, but Josie it's time
You gotta get your feet on the ground
But she says: "No, don't you see we have wings?
It's the funniest thing, it's just that no one knows."
No one knows, sweet Josephine...

Well, my sweet Josephine
Are you still racing stray dogs
Across the old stream?
My neighborhood queen,
Are you still kissing cowboys that cry, Josephine?



i found this song as i was searching for songs with my name in them (narcissistic much? a little. haha) awhile back. i love it.

*note to self: if i ever find the boy who will sing me to sleep make him add this song as well as josephine by the wallflowers to his setlist. did i say i was only a little narcissistic? i just wish i had a song written for me. oh well.

another month gone and wasted. summer's offically over but that doesn't mean anything for me anymore.

till later.

books due back 09.13.08

books borrowed from the library today:
1. D.I.Y: design it yourself; edited by, ellen lupton
- everytime i see this book in borders or other stores i skim through it but never buy it. at least now i'll be able to actually read it.
2. snuff; by, chuck palahniuk
- i was planning on buying this book. however due to low funds right now, borrowing it will have to do. one book closer to my goal of reading all his books.

palahniuk books i have read:
1. fight club
2. choke
3. diary
4. rant
5. snuff (reading at the moment)

palahniuk books i have yet to read:
1. invisible monsters (have on my computer, waiting to be read)
2. survivor (have on my computer, waiting to be read)
3. lullaby (have on my computer, waiting to be read)
4. haunted
5. fugitives and refugees: a walk in portland, oregon (not sure if i really want to read this one though)
6. stranger than fiction: true stories

some photos i took in the parking lot:

as i was driving away i noticed this:

the center walkway had books at each pillar, telling the story of the town.

the sidewalk.

close-up of one of the dates & plaques.

then i saw this thing.

close-up.

hi-spy viewing machines
cobourg ontario
canada

the view.
kind of creepy how close you can get with that thing.

till later.

i know that there's a place for me...

somewhere out there.

what's it like to ruin all my self esteem...

reason #35 for why i love target-

they sell hello kitty stuff for only $1:

i went in only to buy contact solution and i came out with all that. i'm a sucker for hello kitty. and for only $1, score! haha.

still on the hunt for a job. sucks so bad. i hate filling out applications and interviews, so sick of them. then again they're probably the only time when i have actual interaction with people other than my mom. ugh.

wow, that last entry was such a downer. i have faith thing will get better over time. i'm just slowly working through it. odd, it feels like i wrote that entry so long ago but really it was only yesterday.

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so weird, i feel like i have spies around the art building because i get updates on who's there. it happened to me twice this week. it's nice to hear from friends. though, one of these updates involved a boy who should listen to this song:

When you act like nothing ever happened
I feel like I should feel bad
But I can't like someone who thought
They're the only one that mattered
While my heart got shattered like romantic roadkill
My heart is all splattered
Your ego got fatter
And I hope that you're flattered
Cause you broke this down
The best thing that you never had

-butch walker

i came upon this song in a blog i read. i always feel like such a creeper reading it because i don't even know her. but this situation she has been in is something i can relate to in a way. i just wish i had been brave enough to send the email i wrote. why didn't i listen to this song around november/december? why do i even still care? gosh, he's not even worth it. i sure i'm over it, but a part of me doesn't want to let it go. i need a new distraction.

in between all these emotional songs i've been listening to, i've been listening to the citizensFOB mixtape, which actual has a snippet of butch walker's mixtape on it. ngl, i'm liking cookie jar by gym class heroes feat. the dream. everytime i hear the dream i think of adam since he's the first person who told me about them. kind of weird.
anyway, cobra starship's i kissed a boy, of course gabe would do that. and all the snippets of the new fall out boy songs just leaves me wanting more. i'm such a loser but when i first heard patrick's voice on the new songs i got so excited. no lie.

like i said, just the tip of the iceberg.

till later.

no place feels like home...

Regrets are worthless,
They misconstrue the past in sight and the sound,
And as lines recede,
No one speaks a word of his lust,
A word of dreams that are left to rust,
The tv's on and everyone stays calm.

Regrets are worthless,
The time has passed,
And no one understands,
And to say the least,
The years have been unfair.

I wanted to tell you I miss it,
I just want to let you know,
The last year has helped me grow,
I want to take you on the road,
Where we'd go I'll never know,
Will you come along?
It's easier when no place feels like home.

Regrets are worthless,
And the time has passed,
Which no one understands,
The years have been unfair to this point,
I said, I want out,
I want to take you out of this,
We're going to California,
And I want to take you on the ride.

It's easier when nowhere feels like...

I'll set things right,
This time, direction, in which to go,
I'll set things right, I'll say goodnight.
Goodnight.

- midtown

for as long as i can remember i have always wanted to live in california. i don't know how i came to conclusion that california was the idea place to live. maybe it had to do with the fact that disneyland was there. many times i would image how my life would be had i live there instead of hawaii and how great it would be. and for that reason it's probably why i wanted so badly to leave hawaii so bad. i always felt i wasn't ment to live there. i never thought i fit in. i was always searching for my place...and i just knew it wasn't hawaii.

i thought the time had finally come when i was about to graduate from high school. there was no way i was spending my college life in hawaii. but due to numerous obstacles, money & my mom were the biggest two, i had to put the dream on hold. i ended up on oahu and though i still wished to leave, after some time i ended up enjoying most of my time there.

but i kept hope i that i was going to make it to california or anywhere on the mainland. i just needed an out. i thought maybe once i finish school, then i would be free to go on this journey. after my second year at school things were changing and i felt i was being left behind. once again i was lost and had nowhere to fit in. so i stayed back on maui. all the while thinking maybe after a year i could escape it all. i could save up and i'd be on my way. but once again i couldn't handle the loneliness of it all and retreated to the one place that i felt somewhat comfortable, oahu.

of course it wasn't easy. everything, everyone changed while i still stayed the same. always a step behind. the years went on and i grew more and more sure of my place...or so i thought.

the last (school) year i spent on oahu was probably the best and worst time. i had my friends. i had art. i had i sense of belonging. then slowly the foundation started to crack.

first my mom brought up the idea of moving. you would think i'd be overjoyed with the news of moving to california. it was all i ever wanted, right. but the timing felt wrong. it was too rush. it wasn't the way i had plan. and worst of it was we were going to move to temecula, yet another small area. too quiet with nothing to do. for me it felt like it would be like living in maui all over again...but this time i wouldn't have friends to help me through the quietness. temecula, where my only family there were ones i haven't seen since i was little...and even then i never was really close to them.

but being on oahu and away from home i could easily forget that i was leaving. i would just push it away until i had to face it. it was the other cracks hurt the most. first there was him. there was no hiding since he was always around. having to see him ripped into me the hardest. the pain lasted way longer then it should have. he didn't know it, no one did, but he left me befeated, broken. just when i was finally starting to be sure of myself and things were looking up... the one time i thought it was finally ok to speak what i felt, to show who i was. in the end, that situation left me questioning myself. why i wasn't good enough? what was wrong with me? and so, i started to close myself off once again.

then the new year started, 2008. i was hopeful once again that this time things would be better. and then elise had to go back home. i already had to say good-bye to leigh. and now it was another friend gone. another part of my circle missing. and it changed things. living in the apartment was different.

i went through so many emotions in that short time. and had a few breakdowns, most of them behind close doors but there were a few that i couldn't help and let go in front of friends. but i carried on. for the most part the good totally outweighed the bad. and good-byes, in every form, are a part of life.

but the greatest good-bye i had was my own...to hawaii - my friends, my home, my life. even though i always hope to leave there, i guess i never really thought i was going to. i'm still dealing with everything. and the hardest part is i have to deal with it alone...because i can't let people in to help me.

how ironic, all my life i was dying to leave hawaii. and now i finally make it out and i'm missing everything i left behind. it's an on-going struggle figuring where i belong. if not hawaii, where? if not here, then where?

i think the reason i'm missing hawaii so much is becasue there were things there to distract me, keep me busy. it was only when things would slow down, is when i started wanting. when i was around friends or doing things, that's when i felt like things were good. being here, now. there's nothing to really distract me. i can try to forget evey so often. but the the quiet settles in and know that i am alone.

i always thought moving to california was what i wanted the most. but in reality what i want to most is not to have to be alone with myself...at least not all the time. i want the distractions. i want the craziness. i want to be around people i can be myself around. that why i miss my friends so much. i'm never that good of keeping in touch. i finally had a group of friends i felt i belonged to. and i had to leave...and i know down the road they'll be gone. and i'll still be trying to find my way.

maybe it really is easier when nowhere feels like home.

sleepless nights leads to too much thinking.

i'm sure more will come.

for now, i can finally say i'm tired.

goodnight.

till later.

ps. i wish my ipod was working properly, i miss listening to midtown.

folie a deux...

NEW FALL OUT BOY ALBUM!!!
nov. 4th!!!
i didn't see this coming...at least so soon.
yay!!!
apparently there's this whole viral thing happening linking FOB, decaydance, CFOB...and so on.
it's crazy.
get the free sneek peek of some songs as well as others: CFOB mixtape

this is only just the tip of the iceberg.
following up to this point was insane.


it's almost 5am and i can't sleep (what a surprise).
i need a boy to sing me to sleep.

till later.

the darkness doesn't have any answers...

i ended up watching the re-run of last season's one tree hill tonight. gosh, i use to be so obsess with that show, i never missed an episode. one time i even skipped out on ice skating to watch an episode. missing ice skating! i must have really loved that show.
when the wb first switched over to the cw the channel didn't transfer over in hawaii so i missed out on season 4 and i sort of lost touch with the show. once we got finally got the cw and season 5 started i wasn't as attached and didn't really keep up with the show. but since i've had loads of free time right now, i've been keeping up with the re-runs of season 5 on the cw...and i got sucked into it once again. i don't know what it is with that show but once i see an episode i get hooked. funny, since that's how i got into the show in the first place. when it first debuted i refused to watch the show. then one day with nothing to watch i caught just one episode and that was it.
anyway, what i really enjoy about the show are the quotes you get from it. seriously, it's like i should watch the show with a notepad and pen. they have a quote for everything. for my final project for expanded arts class i even used sound clips from episodes that i really related to. the quotes are probably why i get so hooked on the show. yeah, the quotes...

oh, and james lafferty/nathan scott ♥

remember when pete was on a few episodes in season 3. haha. at that point in my life that was perfect. i love this photo of pete and the oth girls. i had it in my xanga and while looking through the entries i can't help but notice the unhealthy amount of pete wentz photos that showed up, hehe. it's crazy how time changes things...and yet, sometimes things stay the same.

oh and the fact they also re-run episodes of gossip girls before one tree hill has now gotten me hooked on that show as well. i went through the whole season not watching a single episode of that show. sadly, i no longer can claim that. :/ i guess i get sucked into things too easily.

till later.

nathan scott: "the darkness doesn't have any answers..."

i'll make you banana pancakes...

some random facts about today:

- i had banana pancakes for dinner tonight, yum. the best banana pancakes i ever had was in kailua at boots & kimo's. their macadamia sauce is so yummy. banana pancakes makes me think of jack johnson. and it also reminds me of the notebook -

Noah’s dad: Would you like some breakfast?
Young Allie: Now?
Noah: Dad, it’s 10 o’clock.
Noah’s dad: Well what’s that got to do with it, you can have pancakes any damn time you want.

so true. you can never go wrong with breakfast for dinner.

sidenote: to quote pete - "all that matters is ryan gosling and rachel mcadams are back together. my life is at ease now." i don't know why and i don't even know them personally but i love them and i'm glad they're together again.

- harry potter goblet of fire is on tv right now. cedric just died, *tear*. i love how everyone in the movie talk about how handsome he was since robert is now playing edward cullen, who is exteremly gorgeous. yeah, he fits.i'm still bummed harry potter and the half-blood prince isn't coming out till next summer. but i'm excited that twilight comes out in november now. i just hate how people always try to compare them. the only similarities they have is that fact that robert pattinson is linked to the movies. that's it nothing else.

- when i was on ONTD earlier i saw a post about kidz bop doing a cover of lil wayne's lollipop. if it's for real, that's so messed up. like i said in the bulletin: 1. the kids sound horrible & 2. you cannot have a clean or kid friendly version of that song, period.

it also reminds me when pete was talking about when they wanted to cover dance, dance but he wouldn't let them. "i only want sympathy in the form of you crawling into bed with me..." good call pete! haha.

- i watched a bit of the olympic closing ceremony. i haven't been watching the games really. i remember in 5th grade how one of out last projects was about the summer olmpics and had to pick two events. i was really into gymnastic and fencing. yeah, idk.

i love this gif & all the others ones it has spawned.

oh yeah!

i could go on and on with totally randomness but i'll stop here.

till later.

i will sing you lullabies...

i am wide awake.
every night's the same story.
empty and alone.

2 in the morning.
yet another sleepless night.
someday it will change.

i should start writing haiku again. i forgot how fun they are to write. maybe i could do a haiku-a-day. or not. but for sure more poems. i need to start getting creative again. it makes me happy. maybe that's why i've been so down lately...hmm, maybe.

remember the haiku book i made? i think volume 2 needs to happen.

too bad i no longer have the use of a letterpress.

my book. construction paper. crayola colors.

and haiku poems about friends, fish, and a broken heart.

i really should get some sleep. i wonder if i'm still adjusting to the time difference. or if it's just because i've never been able to sleep well. maybe a little of both. i have a love/hate relationship with night/sleep. i get a lot of ideas at night. but i'm also left with lots to think about...and sometimes i rather just sleep it all away.

at least i'm ahead on posting.
we shall see if tomorrow (well, i guess today) will see another post.

i think the answer might be no though.

till later.

ps. i think i'm dont with "*blanks* of the day." i don't do anything new anyway so they aren't really needed. maybe they'll just pop up here and there. who knows.

i am at a lost...

and have nothing to say.
i'm growing bored of it all.
i need to get out. and away.

so i'll just leave it at that.

maybe tomorrow.

till later.

let it fall...

So I weep
So I weep
So I weep
So I weep

In my weakest moments I weep
'Cause I like the way, tears fit my cheek
In my darkest moments I cry
Oh how I love the way, tears suits my face

I like it salt
I like it wet
Like my makeup in a mess
So I cry hard
Let it fall
And I won't stop until my tears are all shed

So I weep
So I weep
So I weep
So I weep

In my joyous moments I moan
'Cause it feels so good when I let my water flow
Drip drop, and I cannot stop
Can't stop, no I said no
Drip drop, and I cannot stop
Can't stop
I cry for you, cry for you
I cry because I cannot help it
So it runs, yes it falls
And ain't no stopping at all

I like it salt
I like it wet
Like my makeup in a mess
So I cry hard
Let it fall
And I won't stop until my tears are all shed

So I weep
So I weep
So I weep
So I weep

Let it fall


remember back in november/december when my hair was falling out, more the usual, due to stress and douchebag problems. yeah, i think it might be happening again. luckily, if i can even use that word, it's just stress this time. good thing i have a lot of hair, haha.

till later.

song of the day: let it fall - lykke li

movie of the day: The Lost Boys:The Tribe
i hated it. maybe it because i love the original so much. i knew it was going to be crappy when i first hear of it. yet i still watched, the whole thing too. why is that. if anything find the videos of the alternative endings on youtube because it's pretty much what the people want to see.

epic fail.

sunlight shining through my window, let's me know that i'm still alive...

i'm still trying to figure out how i want my room set up. i keep moving things around because i keep getting bored of the layout. today i fixed up one wall in my room. i'm sure i'll keep messing with it though.

my room could totally pass for a 13 year old fangirl's room but i don't care. every piece holds a memory for me. plus, white walls are like blank canvases and i just need to cover them.i guess i'd call this wall my "music/concert" wall. covered in photos and posters of band i like and concerts i've been too. most of the concert posters are ones i've "stolen" from the streets.

some details:new found glory poster i got when they did a signing at HIC the night before surf-fest '04. bonus - james from reggie and the full effect was playing keyboards for them then so he was there and drawing on all the posters. mines has a sash around jordan that says "james." oh and elise stole that badminton/body card thing from the cafe awhile back for me since i loved it so much.

all-american rejects poster that sam got, one for me and one for laura, above the urinals in pipeline. they were selling thoes posters outside for $5. we were able to get tyson, after sneaking into vip, and nick to sign them. plus, 311, blink 182, & lifehouse flyers for concerts i went to.

i put the polaroids from my birthday this year in a frame. i love it. good times. and part of the poster for the brand new concert i went to that was mega epic. no opening band, just two hour of brand new, so good.

i'm using the stool i made as my nightstand. i didn't go to that jason mraz concert but i went to the first one he had on oahu. and a signed national product photo from the first time i actually meet them, but was the second time i saw them play.

above my bed. more music posters and my collage painting i did last fall. along with my hello kitty plush doll that i got one christmas sometime during elementary school and my hello kitty fleece blanket i got a few years ago.

some details:

signed over it poster. and signed matisyahu vip pass. i can't believe sara and i actually went to that concert...for free...with vip passes. and to think, we had only plan to listen to the concert in the park, haha.

another signed over it poster that i framed with some of the stuff i was given when i was street teaming for their silverstrand cd. i had so much of those stickers and postcards. i gave away so many but every so often i still find some laying around.

around my desk area. skateboarding related collage i did for intermediate drawing a couple of years ago. pete alexander, my chick-a-saurus i made in 3-D intro. my "jo-r" hawai'i licence plate. my all time low photos, minus rian. playing card screenprint of my face from ryan c. wave/surf calendar. nagamine homeless photo. quotes. a tons more.

another view of the wall from the end of my bed.

the cranes hang from my bed. also a shot of my other wall, the "art" wall.

once i clean up my room, more photos to come. i like documenting my space, since i tend to change it a lot. i have and keep a lot of stuff, geez.

till later.

food of the day: cheesecake, yum!

store of the day: costco

come one, come all...

you're just in time

to witness my first breakdown

cause there's a mile gone

for every minute passed

when i'm stuck in this town...

i'm scared to death of what's to come. truthfully, i have no idea where i'll be a year from now. i know most people don't know that but i have no real clue. i might move again. and i might be alone. my mom is seriously considering moving back to the philippines and i, of course, don't really think that's an option for me. so...if i don't figure out stuff soon enough i might just end up nowhere. hmm.

a year is a long time from now and a lot can happen. she's giving this a chance for a least a year. nothing's set in stone of course. i'm not really sure when my mom will move but really there's nothing for her here, except for me. but i'm old enough to take care of myself, right? at least i should be. i just feel so lost right now. especially with the way things are right now, things aren't looking so promising for myself. i just want her to be a happy and she wants the same for me. which is why i feel like if she wants to go to the philippines then i think she should and if i want to stay, she would let me stay. we're going to do what we think is for the best and i guess we can only hope for the best.

i guess all i can do is wait and see...but it's the waiting that killing me.

and the hunt to finding myself continues.

till later.

song of the day: come one, come all - all time low

video of the day:

it's twilight tuesday yet again. full of jasper/jackson love, yay! jasper's my second favorite character, my favorite being edward ♥ of course. i wouldn't mind jasper using his power to distort my reality from time to time. i don't care how cheesy this movie looks, i can't wait for it to come out. and i'm super excited that i don't have to wait till december anymore. though i still wish harry potter was still coming out in november.

i totally use these books and movies as an escape but really they just play with my emotions sometimes, haha.

fragile future

i just read danny's new blog entry. i have always enjoyed reading what he has to say. his writing has always had an affect on me. and they always seem to show up just when i need to hear them. it reminded me of one of his past entries that really got to me. it was almost two years ago, and i was yet again stuck in a phase of saddness. then one night i just happen to find myself on his page with a new entry waiting for me to read. it was something i needed to hear...

thursday, september 14, 2006 - sometimes it's good to go back to the past. it's how you learn, right?

well, tonight it happened again. in all honesty, this new entry didn't hit me quite as hard as the one two years ago did. but it still touched me, let me hope in a way. it was a sweet and loving story about a women, catherine, who left such an impact on his life and how he now has to cope with the idea of good-bye.

two years ago i wrote how i admire danny and how genuine he comes across. over the years i maybe heard some different stories that left me looking at him in a different manner. but when it all comes down to it, i still admire him for the passion he shows when it needs to be shown.

i wish i could be so open with my writing. i actually wrote and re-wrote this post many times, not sure how to start. i want to be able to get it all out but don't want to be left too exposed. maybe over time it will flow better. i'll be able to release more. but for now this is enough for what i need.

till later.

song of the day: let it be - the beatles

image of the day:

i wish that i was as invisible as you make me feel...

some post secrets i've found and relate to so much at this moment:

i could go on and on with more. it's nice to know i'm not alone in these feelings. but i wish i wasn't feeling like this. i wish i knew how to start over because when i was given the chance to i ended up right back where i started...

i can't stopping feeling like i hate where i am at the moment. i don't just mean the actually place i'm at but also the path i'm making of my life. i feel like it's one big mess and i don't know how to clean it up. worst part is, i know i brought it on myself. i'm just afraid i'm not going to get myself out of this completely intact. i know i'm broken and even if i fix myself, the scars will still show.

sometimes i sound just like a broken record.

today i was hit with something. maybe it should be the answer to it all. at least it seems like it could be...but i too scared and too selfish to actually want to let it happen.

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i want to believe this one so much:

till later.

website of the day: post secrets

song of the day: the pros and cons of breathing - fall out boy

it’s a good thing i have my library card, because i’m checking you out...

one of joe jonas's favorite pick-up line. is it sad that, one: i know who joe jonas is and two: that i know that this is one of joe's favorite pick-up lines. in all fairness though, the jonas brothers are everywhere, you can't escape them. i don't know if i actually like them or if i just think i like them because everything in the world is telling me i need to like them, haha. i don't really know any of their other songs besides their singles and the things i do know about are things i read and hear in interviews/online. i know more about their rumored love lives than their music and that feels wrong. maybe i should give them a listen.

anyway, they were on a repeat of ellen the other day and joe happened to use this line. i thought it was an appropriate title for this post since i actually did get my library card today. i figure since i have some free time on my hands i should read more, other than the twilight books. there's just so much books out there, i don't know which ones to check out. i guess i need to do some research on that. it cool though because they have a bunch of art/art history books i wouldn't mind checking out. i really liked my art history classes, though sometimes they could be very boring and it was hard to remember some of the information for tests. but it's just nice to learn more about the things you love.

till later!

book of the day: confessions of an ugly stepsister - gregory maguire

movie of the day: blade: trinity - it's on tv right now.

my favorite thing about blade: trinity...

hannibal king!!!

haha at the fact that he mentions having hello kitty tattoo :)

ryan reynolds, love him.

can't wait to see him as deadpool in wolverine next to my favorite x-men character, gambit!!! finally. i was bummed when gambit wasn't in the other x-men movies...he's always been my favorite.

W.O.W. i'm such a geek when it comes to comic book/superhero movies, haha.

angus, thongs, and perfect snogging...

with nothing productive planned today, i thought i'd watch a movie. i wasn't in the mood to head out to a movie theater, even though there's one right down the road, so i went and found one online.
angus, thongs, and perfect snogging was the first title to catch my eye. yes, it was a unique title but it was also because i knew of the book with the similar title, angus, thongs and full-frontal snogging. i remember when those books came out, years ago, and had read the first couple of them.
i didn't even know they were making a movie based on the books. i guess i was too caught up with ironman, the dark knight, twilight, and harry potter (which btw, i'm so bummed they're postponing till next summer, lame!!!) movie news. then again it is a british based movie and hasn't even had it's u.s. premire yet. the director of the movie is gurinder chadha, who directed both bend it like beckham and bride and prejudice.

it has been quite a long time since i read the book and honestly didn't remember much of the story. but you didn't need to know the books to enjoy the film. and of course it is a movie based on the books, so there was a few changes, such is the case with many book into movie films. just like the sisterhood of the travling pants 2, this movie included moments that happened in later books. but i didn't really know that, until i started google-ing around.
anyway, i really enjoyed the film. the story of a young girl growing up, crushing on a boy, broken hearts, and tons of embrassing moments is one i can relate to, far too well. not just because there were moments in my teenage life when i felt or went through something similar but also because i feel like i'm still dealing with those feeling and having those moments. georgia's mom points out this fact in the movie, how everyone no matter how old feels this way. now if only i could end up with my own sex god, haha.
the movie was funny, touching, and sweet. perfect choice for today. i enjoyed the music in the movie as well - the pipettes: pull shapes (the first time i heard this song was on the cd seth gave me for my b-day), peter bjorn & john: young folks (love them), kate walsh: your song (beautiful, feel in love with it once i heard it)...and stiff dylans: ever fallen in love (with someone you shouldn't)(buzzcocks cover!) & ultraviolet (can't stop listening to this song), who's sex god robbie's band in the movie.

aaron johnson plays robbie in the movie:

aw, he was so cute...and is so young, it's not fair, haha.

fun fact: he played young charlie chaplin in shanghai knights.

the movie is suppose to come out in the u.s. in october. i wouldn't mind catching it again in theaters.

till later!

band of the day: stiff dylans

video of the day: stiff dylans - ultarviolet.

music video featuring clips from the movie.

Alo Ha!

it made my day when i opened up the mailbox today and saw a little package from jamie.

in it were these:

i love tan hello kitty, she always reminds me of hawaii. i wish i had gotten more tan hello kitty stuff before i left.

these stickers are prefect because of two main things; 1. i love the pineapples & 2. the fact that aloha is spelled into two words, Alo Ha, awesomeness!!!

also included was a sweet little note. i miss jamie so much. i called her to thank her. it's been so long since we actually talked, even if our conversation wasn't as uplifting as we both hoped, haha. still it was good to hear from her.

i really do miss my friends. i suck so bad at keeping in contact, i'm not a phone person. though it's good to hear from them now and then online and stuff. i just don't have anything exciting to talk about since my days have consist of me doing absolutely nothing. i wish i could just hangout with everyone again.

well jamie and i have decided to look at life more positively. things will start to look up, it has to.

till later!

quote of the day: "f*** that cake!" -

inside joke between friends that became a way at looking at life during hard times.

website of the day: hello kitty hell -

i fear my future husband will end up feeling like this.

drive away till you find a new day...

i went to the dmv today.
i think i've been there more times then would be normal within a two month time frame.
the first time was to change my plates...and i had to say good-bye to the "jo-r mobile." though to me, she (my car) will always be the "jo-r mobile" no matter what the license plate says.
the second time was to change my hawaii license into a california one. the test wasn't so bad, luckily it was only the written test. i don't even know how i would have done if i had to take the driving test again. i don't have fond memories of taking driving tests, yes i've tried more than once.
my mom, however, had a hard time. that's the problem when english is not your first language and you don't really understand what the book is trying to saying. i wish i could explain everything better to her. plus it's been a really long time since she ever had to retake a driving test.
today we went to get her a california id. since she doesn't feel ready to retake the test just yet.
the dmv is such a great place to people watch, one of my favorite things to do. it always takes so long at the dmv but watching everyone around me always makes the time flow a little better. i found that the best people to watch were the ones coming out of the testing room. you can easily tell the people who passed and the people who didn't just by the way they come out of that room. oh the things i do to keep myself entertained.

till later!

song of the day: over it - where the sky begins

t.v. show of the day: project runway

summer hair = forever young

i dyed my hair today.

i've been trying to grow it out, for quite some time now. but i always end up getting bored with it and cutting it. i guess it's a good thing i don't have a hairdresser here yet otherwise i probably would have cut it by now. though it is getting to a point were it's growing out and i don't really like how it looks. it probably could use a trim.

anyway, since i can't cut it, i did the other thing i do when i get bored, i bought a box of hair dye. it never turns out exactly how i want it but i don't mind much. it's just a quick fix to cure my boredom for the meantime.

i never get too extreme with my hairstyles but i've a few things to it. it's been straight, wavy, curly, i've had bangs, i grew them out, i've dyed it, i've cut it. i was looking through some photos from a year or 2 back and saw some of the different ways i've had my hair.

here's a mini hair timeline:

i use to like to have my hair staight so i would either use a straightener or i would get my hair chemically straightened.

when i had my hair straight, i liked having bangs. this was probably the longest my hair had been in awhile.

then i decided i liked having wavy hair. and i also ended up cutting it shorter.

then i got stressed out and though a new look was the answer. i wish i kept this look for a little longer.

i ended up dying my hair purple. too bad it didn't last that long. and it looked so gross when it started to fade.

after that mess of both the hair and a part of my life, i went back to a more natural color.

then i got bored again and added a little streak in my hair using some jamie's extra dye. i don't think you can really see it in the photo though. i really liked it. i kind of wish i had kept it.

this is when my hair look likes now. the name of the dye was disco inferno, i kid you not. it suppose to be red-ish i guess. it's kind of like a rusted red-brown on me. the color's ok. i'll get use to it...or i'll end up changing it.

till later!

event of the day: twilight tuesday

video of the day:

this video happened to come out today. how perfect for a post about hair.

the butcher!!!
♥

you are not alone...

when i was still in high school i found this band online. they were called over it. i liked their music and soon became a fan. a couple years later, my second year in college, they were coming to play at surf-fest, their first show in hawaii. i had join their street team and days before they were set to play i got an email from them inviting me to come out to the concert. out of all the band playing, i was most excited to see them. that day, i learned that not only did they play great music but that they were also a bunch of great guys. they quickly became my favorite and i was overjoyed when i learned that they were returning to play in hawaii a couple years later.

that second show was probably one of the best concerts i ever have been to. never had i thought they would remember me, but they did and even seemed happy to see me there. they were as friendly as ever. it was fun hanging out and talking with them. i saw them play just once more later that week. i had almost miss that chance since i didn’t know they were playing with aar and the show had sold out. but once again they had me covered.

they did a lot for me, guest lists, free cd, pictures, even a ride home. i saw that their fans really meant a lot to them and that was refreshing to see. after those three shows they didn't have any other shows in hawaii. but i kept in touch leaving messages here and there and to my surprise they would reply. i could go on and on with reasons why i love them so much. maybe at a later time.

over the years the band changed their line up adding ryan, from don't look down. then seth had left the band to return to school. that sadden me since he was always so sweet and friendly to me. then lastly they add jon, formerly from rufio, as their new bass player. i was shock to hear through the grapevines that maybe an over it breakup on the horizon.

but it wasn't a breakup...it was the start of a new band, runner runner. not too long after hearing these rumors, nick sent me a message telling me of his new band. though i'm sure i would have found out about them by myself soon enough, it was nice that he had thought to let me know.

although, over it will always hold so many good memories for me, runner runner is without a doubt my newest addiction. their music makes me smile. and it doesn't hurt that they are the same great guys of over it (and rufio and don't look down). i can't wait to see where this road leads them. i hope i get the chance to see them in concert one day. either way, i'm here to support them. i feel like any band that treats their fans more like friends will go far.

they're taking over.

till later!

band of the day: runner runner

video of the day: runner runner - dedicate