i wish that i was as invisible as you make me feel...

some post secrets i've found and relate to so much at this moment:

i could go on and on with more. it's nice to know i'm not alone in these feelings. but i wish i wasn't feeling like this. i wish i knew how to start over because when i was given the chance to i ended up right back where i started...

i can't stopping feeling like i hate where i am at the moment. i don't just mean the actually place i'm at but also the path i'm making of my life. i feel like it's one big mess and i don't know how to clean it up. worst part is, i know i brought it on myself. i'm just afraid i'm not going to get myself out of this completely intact. i know i'm broken and even if i fix myself, the scars will still show.

sometimes i sound just like a broken record.

today i was hit with something. maybe it should be the answer to it all. at least it seems like it could be...but i too scared and too selfish to actually want to let it happen.

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i want to believe this one so much:

till later.

website of the day: post secrets

song of the day: the pros and cons of breathing - fall out boy