this is the countdown...

so there's a little over an hour left in 2008.
how fitting i end the year in the same town as i started it.
though unlike the start of 2008, i'm no longer a visitor...
now, i call this place home (though, it's still hard to think of here that way).

after many years of failed resolutions, for the past few years i have given them up.
however, i still make goals for the new year...
ok, so maybe they're like resolutions but without the title.
"goals" just sounds better to me.

goals of 2009:
- making the best of what i'm given.
- making more art.
- stay connected to friends (and maybe even make some new ones, haha).
- finding me a boy...even if he has to be just another stupid little crush, just no more douchebags.
really, i just hope to find myself happier in the new year, which is something i tend to wish for every year/everyday. honestly, it still hasn't really happen as of yet but i'm not one to lose hope.

oh, while i was at costco today i picked up a copy of the last lecture. i didn't even know there was a book out. i remember watching the video of randy pausch's last lecture. for a person like me who has alway thought of herself as a dreamer, it was a very inspirational and moving speech. i think reading the book will be a good way to start off the new year.
sidenote: i also got the tales of beedle the bard. what can i say, i love all things harry potter.

well, good-bye 2008.
we had our good time, our bad times, and our in-between times.
i'm ready for what 2009 will bring.

happy new year!
be safe. be well. be loved.

till later.

the best and the worst of 2008...

bye bye '08
hello 2009!!

having a little fun with the condensation on my bedroom window. my window's sweaty, haha. anyway, i was going to make another end of the year list but dang, that last list took so long. i got a little carried away. but here's a list anyway...i'll try to make it short(er).

best 5 moments of 2008:
5. moving to california.
- granted, i haven't been loving living in california for most parts. however, living in california has always been a dream of mines since as long as i can remember. in truth, i believe i just don't enjoy this area of california...it's too small town for me rather than big city, it just feels like there would be more to do near the city. i hope to one day move closer to the city life i've always dreamed of. the fact i'm already in california just brings me closer to that dream. maybe after a couple of years this place might actual feel like home.

4. runner runner music video shoot.
- i'm so glad i got to go and be a part of their music video. i won't write a long rant about it now since i've already done it here. but i will say this, was a very fun day. and it was nice to see familar faces (still can't get over the fact nick totally remembered me) and meet a few new ones as well.

3. incubus concerts.
- refer to previous entry. let's just say all those concerts should fall right here on this list.

2. spring semester.
- one of the best semesters. all my classes were of those i actually enjoyed going to, which might explain how i ended up with straight "a's" for the first (and last?) time in college. lunches with brooke and/or sara were the best part of each school day. actually being part of art events. the printmaking room: litho and letterpress. the art building was my second home. share-a-bike. first fridays. bar/house/apartment parties. girls night. dancing all night. the 14th (13th) floor/apartment. much, much, more...and of course the reason behind all of it, what makes it the best...all my friends, old and new.

1. my 23 birthday.
- best birthday i've had in a long time. i usually forgo parties and end up just having a dinner or something. but this year, i figured since it was probably the last b-day i'll have with my friends, why not make it "the best day ever!" and to me it was. the dinner was awesome and i was so thankful for everyone that showed up. the party back at the apartment was crazy...jell-o shot snorting, champagne, cupcakes...everywhere, flower people, polroids, the half-eaten apple pipe, extreme edward 40 hand, and even more friends/people showing up. and i can't help but love that my friends and mostly my roommates help make that day #1 for me in 2008.

worst 5 moments of 2008:
5. elise getting mono and leaving school.
- she was my partner in crime. and having to say "good-bye" to a friend is never easy. in fact, i didn't even get the chance to say it in person. the night (or night before?) she was leaving was hard for me. with everything else on my mind at that point (see #1 on this list) this was a breaking point and i ended up breaking down...thankfully the boys next door happen to be awesome friends.

4. moving to california.
- ok, so this also is on my "best" list and like i said up there, for most part moving to california seemed like a bad idea. it just seems like the timing was bad. the location kind of sucks. and i can't help but feel loneliner than ever here. but i'm making the best of it and still have hope for something better. only time will time if this really belongs in the "best" or "worst" moments of my lifetime. though being #4 here and #5 on the "best"...that might be saying something, at least for 2008.

3. having to miss out and many things because i'm here and not there.
- it's not just about living in california while a bunch of my friends are still in hawaii. it also the fact that i'm in california with so much happening around me...yet, i'm still too far to go to them (especially since i'll be alone). it's not fun hearing about everything going on in places i want to be but aren't. plus, i'm a homebody. somedays that's fine...but i've never liked the feeling of being left out, worst feeling ever.

2. having to say good-bye to hawaii/all my friends and family.
- for all the years i've been wanting out of hawaii...now that i got that chance, sometimes i can't help but feel like i want to go back. everyday, i catch myself thinking of certain places, events, moments of the past and end up missing hawaii like crazy. it has been my home for most of my life so far. up until recently, it's all i've ever known...and it hurts sometimes to be so far away. and it should go without saying that what i miss most of all are my friends and family. i hate knowing i'm missing out on seeing the kids grow up. i hate not living next door to family (and people who were pretty much family). and my friends. it's just hard. funny, just when i feel like i'm actually a part of something, that i can be comfortable with being me...i have to start over again...and alone.

1. the aftermath of a broken heart.
- i wrote about this here and a few entries in my old blog here. i can honestly say for the most part i'm over it. i mean it doesn't hurt as bad as it did...it doesn't even really hurt anymore. though sometimes i still find myself thinking about him every so often but then i stop and it's done. ugh, i hated how i ended up feeling because of him. and then having to see him around almost everyday was painful. but i guess, a plus for moving to california, is i don't have to be around him, that he's not a part of my life (no more stupid run-ins and no more me trying to make him like me - even as a friend).
and with that said, i'm still nursing a broken heart of a different kind...having to leave my love ones, having to leave my heart, at least a part of it, in hawaii.

i tried to keep it short(er). it kind of worked.

tomorrow is the last day of 2008...

till later.

top 10 list, 2008 concert edition...

since it's nearing the end of the year, lots of "best of" lists start popping up. so why should my blog be any different. besides, nothing much happened today to report of so here i go...

top 10 best concerts i've been to in 2008:
10. steve aoki at next door - 05.07.08; downtown chinatown (oahu, hawaii):
ok so he's a dj and maybe it shouldn't count as a concert. but hey, most of these are from when i lived in hawaii and the fact that i even had 10 music related events to put down is pretty rad so i'm counting it. plus, he was able to make me dance all night, even with my high heel boots on. there was so much people there, it was packed and so hot. it was such a hipster/wannabe scene, my photo even made it onto one of those hipster/party photo blogs. interestingly, i was sort of dressed like a flapper that night.

9. lifehouse at the pro-bowl block party - 02.09.08; waikiki beach (oahu, hawaii):
free concert on the beach, need i say more. thanks for the heads up on this one sara. oh and they played hanging by a moment which was my sophomore banquet song so it was a fun thing to hear again. if i counted what happened after the concert this would maybe be higher up on the list. champagne on the beach, good friends, a cigarillo, and foreign boys...

8. lifehouse [2nd time on list] at pipeline cafe - 04.21.08 (oahu, hawaii):
yes, lifehouse made it onto the list twice. there are a few more doubles on the list as well, like i said not a lot of people/bands make it out to hawaii. for some reason i cannot find my photos from this concert, it's probably still on my camera somewhere. hence the fact i'm using another block party photo. i think i was having an off night that concert because i enjoyed it but it wasn't the best otherwise it would be higher on the list. though the best thing about it was that i got to go with sara.

7. minus the bear at pipeline cafe - 02.23.08 (oahu, hawaii):
again, the company i had at the concert outweighed the actual concert itself. don't get me wrong they were great and everything but hanging out with jamie at the show made it better. tbh, i mostly went just because she didn't want to go alone. and once again the aftermath of the concert made the night much more memorable...oh how i miss those random house parties.

6. atreyu at pipeline cafe - 02.08.08 (oahu, hawaii):so i had never listened to them before the concert. i went because sara was going. and i have to say i'm so happy i got to go. the crowd was so intense, it was crazy good. i could have lived without the opening act(s). but i had so much fun, i had the bruises to prove it. though i will never want to be up front and center again. i don't mind hanging out towards the sides, safe and out of the way from the crowdsurfers. and that night i also was introduced to the greatness that is big dan!!!
i even caught a pick from him :)

5. say anything at pipeline cafe - 04.16.08 (oahu, hawaii):
even before the actual concert started things were looking good. i ended up having a nice conversation with a girl in line, that made me not feel like a loser for being there alone, not dressed like a scenester, and not still in high school. ugh, i do not miss waiting in line with those kind of people, talk about not fitting in and feeling super old. i also got to meet parker who was so dorky cute, he really liked my outfit, and jake, who totally was mimicing me while i was on the phone with jamie...who ended up coming to the show with noa.

4. eye alaska and all time low at a best buy in-store - 11.02.08 (lakewood, california):
my first and only concert, though not really a concert, in california of this year. i already wrote about this event here. good times, good times.

3. all time low [2nd time on list] and the starting line at pipeline cafe - 02.19.08 (oahu, hawaii): i never thought i'd get to see tsl in concert. when i was in high school i just loved them and remember reading some girl's blog (before they were called blogs, maybe) about how she'd go to their concerts all the time. let's just say when i heard they were coming to hawaii it was no question as to if i would go or not. when they were first announced to come red jumpsuit apparatus was suppose to be their opening band. i had a few people tell me they were going to go to see rja. me, i could have cared less about them, i was there to see tsl. but then rja had to back out and were replaced with...all time low!!! however, out of all my friends i seemed the only one excited about the change and ended up going by myself. seriously, how could you want rja when atl was coming instead. i mean atl is ap's "band of the year" while rja is well...where are they now? in the end i had a blast. i go to meet (for the first time) alex, zack, jack (who ended up being a favorite of mines) and matt from tsl...plus they played "best of me" (alex jumped on in the end). the high school girl in me was jumping for joy. and speaking of long time love...

2. incubus (w/silversun pickups and timmy curran) and at waikiki shell - 03.21.08 (oahu, hawaii):
hands down one of my favorite bands of all time. the music video to drive is absolutely my favorite music video and stellar and talk shows on mute are some of my favorite songs ever (as well as countless other incubus songs). and i have already written about my love for b.boyd here, and believe me that is an edited version of it, i could have gone on and on. and now, this concert at waikiki shell is high on my list of my best concerts ever, not just in 2008. i remember i was back home on maui when a friend on oahu called me to tell me the news. haha, she remembered how much i loved them and my b.boyd print i did in our class. it was also such a perfect night with good friends, outside under the stars with diamond head right beside me. though i wish it could have been pipeline just so i could have been way closer. but it probably would have sold-out quick and i would have missed it. but hey, having a lawn ticket doesn't mean you can't sneak down towards the seat area to get a closer look. and i got to make friends with a dude who was probably like 7ft tall, no lie. i could have done without the "almost" fight, it was pretty funny though.

so what could possibly beat this concert to be #1...

1. incubus (w/silversun pickups and timmy curran) [2nd time on list] and at maui arts and cultural center - 03.22.08 (maui, hawaii): is it cheating if i listed this concert twice? i mean they took place on different days...and different islands. ah, it's my list. i'll do what i want. so not only was i able to see my favorite band play, i got to see them live twice...back to back. what makes this #1 and not the other concert? well, although i did not have my amazing friends with me at this concert, what i love most about maui concerts is the ability to get up pretty close because of the smaller crowd. i was up front all night. and at points b.boyd would walk up all the way to the front. so close. when he took the stage, my heart stopped for awhile. the only other time that had happened (when it wasn't because of him) was when jared leto took the stage...he's just so pretty, as is b.boyd. oh, and not to take away from the other bands because they were both great, it's just i was totally in love with incubus all night (both nights).

ok so that's my list for 2008. i hope i'll be able to see at least one show in 2009. though, i will miss hawaii concerts (mostly those at pipeline) and my concert friends (though i mainly did go alone). they were good times indeed.

and just because...
here are some concerts that should have been on the list, however they took place in 2007 (though it was during last fall semester so it felt like it was part of 2008):

- gym class heroes at pipeline cafe - 08.15.07 (oahu, hawaii):this was the start of the fall semester and gch was the first concert of that school year. i got to meet disashi, who was really nice, dejesus, who was really funny, and travis, who was really tall. the vip area smelled of weed and "trying" to have a conversation with travis was classic. so funny.

- brand new at pipeline cafe - 09.25.07 (oahu, hawaii):if this concert had taken place in 2008 it probably would have cracked the top 5 on the list. um, jesse lacey is pruely amazing. and this show was just epic. no opening act...not having to sit, i mean stand, through a so-so band was heaven. and to top it off band new played for 2hrs...which meant they played all the songs i wanted to hear. it was so good, so good. and the closing...already been said, epic.

- aerosmith - 09.29.07 (oahu, hawaii):a concert in my own backyard, too good to be true right? right. the students of uh will never forget the night aerosmith put on a concert at our campus...but none of us were invited. that's ok though, our neighbors' got an awesome view and the music played loud and clear. we made the best with what we were given. haha, this even landed elise and me in the school newspaper thanks to our mega $ellouts (with the toyota symbol in the "o") banner. in the end, steven tyler knew who the real fans were when before he got into his van (a toyota perhaps?) he turned toward our apartments, got on his knees and bowed down to us. amazing.

- shiny toy guns and national product at pipeline cafe - 10.21.08 (oahu, hawaii):such a fun night. i went for np, my friends went for stg, we all ended up having a great time. one of us even ended up getting a text-message boyfriend.

wow, this list took up so much time.

till later.

the last sunday of 2008...

i've spent the last two days stuck in my room/house, just trying to rest up.
i think the worst is over though.
no more nose blowing or even coughing.
just in time for work tomorrow...
great.

it's weird, with all this "resting" i can't help but feel more drained.

and that is how i spent the last weekend of 2008.

i have also come to the conclusion that i'm going to buy season 2 of heroes very soon...
and sometime in 2009 i am going to buy me a new laptop.

the countdown till 2009 is on.

till later.

last saturday of 2008...

the best part about today - hot and sour soup.
i had bought one of those soup packet thingy from the asian market or seafood city awhile back. and today was perfect soup day. it is cold and i am sick. it wasn't so bad. it was actual pretty good but of course i have had better. next time i need to add some bamboo shoots and tofu to make it extra yummy.

i still want my pho though.

till later.

we're on a major flan high...

our neighbors who live in the apartment under us is a little family orignially from mexico. they have a little girl and a baby boy. well, my mom talks to them from time to time and gave the kids some christmas gifts. the girl likes hannah montana so we got her something from the disney store. as for the little boy my mom got him a handy manny doll which is almost as tall as he is. i had no idea who handy manny was, so when i found out he's voiced by wilmer valderrama i couldn't help but find that funny. when i think of him i think of fez, yo momma (cash money), and how's he's friends with a guy i went to school with (we were even in the same 5th grade class). and now wilmer is doing a kids show...it's cute.
anyway, their mom gave us some flan. and everytime i think of flan i think of the friends episode where monica make rachel a brithday flan instead of a birthday cake. but mmm, flan. it's so good.
speaking of gifts, we did our gift exchange today at work. we pulled numbers to see who would get to pick first. i got 5, there was 7 of us. we got to pick out our gifts twice so people could switch if they wanted. the younger girl that i worked with ended up with my gift, which i was kind of glad. everyone thought it was funny and she said he brother would think it was funny too. when i first picked i picked out the biggest gift but on the second time around my gift got switch. in the end it worked out good. the gift i would have had a this chicken wearing a christmasy hat and played the chicken dance song. it was cute but i loved the gift i ended up with:
a mrs. potato head!!! ever since toy story i've wanted a potato head but never in my life would i end up buying one. remember how the first potato head used an actual potato. that pretty sweet. anyway, i've already played around with it:

so here she is, pretty normal.

then a little more silly.

then all out craziness.

but i think what i really like is the fact you can store everything in her butt.

i sort of figured whatever i get i'd end up actually liking it. i'm kind of weird and tend to like weird things so, it would make sense that i'd like a gift no one else would. i mean when they explained the gag gift to me they used a chia pet as an example of what a gag gift would be. well, i would have like a chia pet as a gift. man, it would have been awesome if i had gotten a chia pet.

well, anyone who reads this...

merry christmas, happy holidays, and all that good stuff.

till later.

last christmas i gave you my heart, the very next day you gave it away...

i don't know why but i have always liked this song, even when i was younger and was not old enough to really understand it. i guess even back then i was a little emo.

work today was super long. we even had to stay an hour after closing, we were so busy. ugh, i'm glad that's done though.

it doesn't even feel like christmas to me. maybe because i'm not back on maui...where i've spent most of my christmases. it's just not christmas unless it's on maui...at least not yet, maybe after a few more years.

well, i'll leave you with the jimmy eat world version of this song. the original was done by wham! how awesome is that!? wham! so good, haha.

maybe next christmas i'll have a boy to give my heart to.

till later.

daddy said you gotta show the world the thunder...

the rain came back today. that meant no ice on the car. no frost on the ground. no snow cap mountains. but it was still so very cold. and all too wet.

i ended up wearing an outfit to work today that ended up very "pete wentz-like." so much so i had to take a photo to document it, haha:

after seeing photos of pete in striped pants, everytime i wear mines or see some around i always think of him, weird huh? dang those pants are getting so tight (it's a bummer). putting them on reminds me of that scene in dazed and confused where the girls are on the bed zipping up their pants with pliers. though i think it was the "without you, i'm just me" shirt and hoodie combo that totally made me feel like i was channeling pete with this outfit.

see i told you i was channeling pete. he pretty much wore the same thing at his art gallery opening. i had no idea. too bad i don't have gold shoes. and i should have worn the only clandestine hoodie i own since the purple hoodie is very cobra starship/gabe saporta.

aw...gabe.

he is so hot.

anyway, this outfit was very comfortable. perfect for a rainy day. though i couldn't help feeling like a 14 year old boy. haha, at the fact that dressing like pete makes you feel like a 14 year old boy since i guess pete does dress like a 14 year old boy (sometimes).

well, i hope it's not so wet tomorrow.

till later.

smitten for the mitten...

ugh, i had to go to the mall today to try to find a gift for my co-workers. of course it was crowded since it's coming down to the wire to do some christmas shopping. for work we're doing something called a "white elephant" gift exchange. i didn't know what that was so they explained how it's suppose to be like gag gifts. i had no idea what to get. for the most part i think i suck at buying gifts. i just want people to really like what i give them that i worry about it too much and can never find that perfect gift. well, my mom and i headed off to the mall in search for this "white elephant." side-note: everytime i hear "white elephant" i think of a tiny elephant trinket or something like that. i love elephants so i would love that as a gift. how can an elephant be a bad gift? anyway, we went into a few stores and i still had no idea what to get. in the end we ended up going into spencer's. if i couldn't find a gag gift in there then i wouldn't find one anywhere. like every other store in the mall it was packed and hard to walk around. there we're a bunch of gag type stuff...but only a handful was appropriate for work. finally i found something i thought could work for a gift. here he is: it's this litte kung fu dude who kicks and talks. there are six saying and luckily i think they are all pretty "clean." it's says on the box for ages 5+ so that works. it's one of thoes things you'd never buy for yourself and never ask for as a gift. i feel like it's a really random gift but actually a little cute too.see how cute he is. i almost want to keep it. the plus was he was 50% which fit well into the price limit we had set. and i didn't end up wasting a load of money on something that only i would probably love to have gotten.
after finding the gift i was all for leaving the mall. i did not want to spend more time there than i had to. just way too much people. but before heading home we stopped at target. they had a sale on some of the winter wear stuff and so i checked out the gloves on sale. i ended up getting a pair:mittens! it kind of looks like an oven mit. i would have been all for plain black gloves but they didn't have any on sale. and their other solid color gloves were still a bit pricey. the fact that they're leopard print is just an added bonus. and while leopard print mittens are pretty awesome the reason i got these were:

they convert into fingerless gloves! and the thumb part even comes down too:so i bought them for around $7. i'm pretty much going to just use them for when i'm driving to work since it's so cold. i don't see where else i'd wear them so i wasn't looking to spend a lot. so this pair is pretty much perfect. i'm going to try them out on the drive tomorrow and see if they do the trick.

till later.

checked my phone and saw you rang...

here's just some random stuff about my day:this was what my drive to work looked like. it might be a little hard to tell but the highway was covered in so much fog, it was crazy. usually you can see clear ahead of you. today, however, it was just covered. yeah, i probably shouldn't have been taking photos on my phone while driving, especially in the fog. but as you can see there wasn't any cars around me at this point.
then i came home and got this in the mail:

it's the art catalogue from pete and travie's art show. i really wish i could have checked out the art in person since it's in a gallery in l.a., gallery 1988, but at least there's a blog. on the site you can buy some of the art with a portion of these proceeds going towards invisible children. side-note: for one of my printmaking projects last fall i did a series of three lithographs (in different techniques) about the children of uganda so i've done a little research on invisible children. the movie was so sad. and though i don't really have an extra amount of hundreds of dollars to spend on an art piece at least what i could spend, some of it went towards a good thing. but the catalogue is neat since it has bits and pieces of the art in the show as well as some stories from pete and travis of how the art/show came to be.
i also ended up getting this shirt. i remember when pete first posted it on his blog. i wanted one so it was good to see they had it for sale.

it's cool to see pete and travis expressing themselves in another art form. i knew travis was an artist, even gone to art school. but i should have known pete was artsy too. i mean he does like to get his hands into everything. their art is very graffiti influenced...and a few pieces kind of remind me of a few people i went to school with (mainly a certain painter i know). this was a piece from their show. this one was done by travis. the main reason it caught my eye was because it's of alex from a clockwork orange, who i just love. and while i was checking out the gallery's website i stumbled upon this print they have for sale:i really want to get it but it's $20. then again it's only $20 for a screenprint of something/someone i adore. in all realness i'll probably end up not getting it...and probably be bummed by that. but i'm not lying when i tell you i love alex/a clockwork orange. just like my love for b.boyd, alex/acwo have made it's way into a few of my art. this is a litho print i did as a crayon drawing of a very iconic screenshot of the droogs. and my chick-a-saurus that i made is also alex inspired (check out the eye paint). i even named him pete alexander. yes, the "pete" is after pete wentz...he was also an inspiration (notice the clandestine/bartskull). and yes, that is a good charlotte poster in the background. this was taken in my maui bedroom and ngl, i wish i still had that poster. and note the gc screenprint i drew when i was in high school though only half of the members are showing.

well after coming home from work and after getting my package, my mom and i went to the post office so we could mail something to my auntie. the line there was huge, last minute stuff. while i waited for my mom i listened to a voicemail i got. it was from elise telling me she was coming back to california today and also that laura was graduating and i should give her a call. so i did. she was in the middle of getting lei'd. i thought it was funny how she was trying to talk to me while all this was going on. we decided it wasn't working so well and we'd just talk later. then i called elise but could only leave a message. we always play phone tag. once we got home though she called and i was able to talk to her for a bit. she was at the honolulu airport. i really hope we find a way to see each other while she's in cali. and there was a moment were i swear we share the same mind sometime because i asked if she seen the digital short: jizz in my pants. i knew the answer would be yes but then she said she had just posted it on my wall. to which i told her i was going to leave her a message with it. i've watched this video so many times now, i love it. it's so funny and andy looks so good in it (along with the other loney island boys, though not a good look for justin). can't wait to hear the songs on the rest of their album.

then i happened upon this awesome .gif while lurking around some sites:

it's pretty much perfect. and speaking of rpattz, he cut his hair!?!

i found some photos while lurking (found some better ones, above, at a later time). he looks so different...and less smelly, haha. looks good though. it'll take some time getting use to it. dang, paparazzi photos are a little creepy. imagine getting your photo taken everytime you're out.

anyway, so that's what has been on my mind today.

till later.

ice, ice, baby...

i woke up to find "the jo-r mobile" covered in a thin sheet of ice. i could see every breath i took. and instead of the regular morning dew on the grass, today it was sprinkled with ice. at least the rain has stopped. it's been so cold lately, mostly in the morning and at night (the inbetween i can handle). i'm just glad my room has a heater. i don't know how i could function without it. geez, this isn't even cold cold, it's california cold. maybe it's a good thing i don't live where it snows. how would i ever make it?
i'm thinking i should pick up a pair of mittens or gloves sometime this weekend for when i drive to work. it's always so cold out at that time and the steering wheel tends to feel like i'm holding onto ice. i kind of want a pair of fingerless gloves or as i like to call them, "homeless people gloves." as lame as it might sound ever since i saw benji and joel rock them back during my high school days, i've wanted them. but who wears gloves in hawaii, right? maybe i'll get the convertible ones that covent into mittens. who knows.
i wonder how long the cold will last.
till later.

i'm dreaming of a white christmas...

usually when i'm driving down i15 to work i'm either very focused on the cars speeding around me or busy bouncing up and down to the music i'm blasting (yeah, i'm one of those people who dance in their cars) to notice anything else around me. but today i happened to look up, pass the speeding cars, pass the open road and was taken aback with the view in front of me. the mountain tops were covered in snow. it was like they were covered by a thick white blanket overnight. it was so pretty. i wish i could have taken a picture. coming from hawaii, that's just not a sight i'm use to. ever since i was little i've wanted to play in snow. apparently, it snowed in las vegas. makes me wish i was in las vegas right now. why couldn't it have snowed when i was there last year around this time? hmm, i'm getting closer though. maybe one day i'll have that white christmas i've dreamed about.

till later.

under my umbrella i'm an accomplished exile...

after taking yesterday off as a "sick day," today i returned to work. i guess what i had was some type of 24hr thing because i'm a lot better than the days before. though, i'm still not 100%.

it's still raining. makes me miss the sun.

exciting part of work today - when the power went out for a minute or two and i was in the cooler when it happened. luckily, i didn't freak and found my way out, even though it was pitch black in there. not fun.

exciting part of the day - getting this in the mail:it's brandon boyd's second book, from the murks of the sultry abyss. i've been waiting so long to buy it. but like always, i never had the money to spend on it, until recently. his first book, white fluffy clouds, is one of my favorite books that i own. i never get tired of looking at it and it serves as a great inspiration for me. if you know me, you know how much i love brandon boyd. he's been like an idol to me for so many years now. i just find him truly amazing. i mean just read his "about me" section on his website. how can you not love him? if i could be half as talented as him, i'd be so happy/lucky. i think he is the reason i tend to find myself drawn to tall, lanky, tattooed covered, artsy dudes. so i guess it's brandon i should blame, haha.

and though my art is nowhere as awesome as his, my love for b.boyd often shows up in them. what can i cay, he really does inspire me.

a litho print i did from a photo of him that's a favorite.

a collage painting i did. the first layer of which was of b.boyd.

i wish i could find the drawing i did of him when i was in high school. yup, even back then he was creeping his way into my art. or maybe i'm the creeper for having him in my artwork so much? hmm...

then this year, i finally got to see incubus in concert. a day i never thought would come. and i was lucky enough to see them two nights in a row. love love love.

he is way thinner in person. and way hotter too =)

i think if i ever met him, i would just die.

incubus is suppose to come out with a greatest hits cd sometime next year. i hope it'll also have some new songs on there since i have all their cds. then again, i'd still buy it if it didn't.

ok, i'm going to stop now or else i'd just keep going. but i'm tired and need the rest.

till later.